Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Day 67 - Blah!

I'm still exhausted but I think my head is on a little straighter today.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken & sweet potatoes - I didn't measure or track this.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Day 66 - No Workout

I had a really bad night. I have so much...shit...going on that I couldn't sleep, I was depressed, and I ate a god damn candy bar. I have no idea how much of it I ate. It was a king size but not a whole king size - maybe 2/3? At any rate, I didn't log it in my apps. So I slept like shit, didn't feel like working out this morning, and just wanted the work day to be over so I could go the fuck to sleep.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - pasta salad, chicken wrap, chocolate cake - I didn't log this. No fucks given.

Monday, June 5, 2017

Day 65 - More Biking

So, I did some more biking this morning. My heart rate doesn't really get up on the recumbent bike but I really didn't feel like doing anything else.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt, chicken & green beans [7]
Dinner - pizza [14]

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Day 64 - Biking

I'm not quite ready to go back to lifting. My tattoo still has some sore, scabby spots and I want to wait until it's completely healed before I start lying on my bench and doing chest exercises. So I will be using my new (to me) recumbent exercise bike. That thing is no joke. I made it 5 minutes before I had to take a break. And by break, I mean stop for the day.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs [6]
Dinner - bread [4] - Yes, I had bread for dinner. I did not prep well for this week.
Snack - vegetables w/ light Asian dressing [3]

Oh and the weigh in wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I'm only up 1 pound from my low. I will take it.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

Days 50 - 63 - Vacation & Fuckery

So things sort of fell apart once I got my tattoo. It really fucking hurt and I didn't really feel like doing much. Even after the first week, it still hurt and I couldn't wear a bra, so I didn't workout. I didn't track my food and I probably made some questionable choices. But I didn't binge and I didn't go crazy, and I'm ready to get back to it tomorrow. I am dreading the weigh in to see the damage but whatever. Back on the wagon!

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Days 44 - 49 - Fitness Break

I have to take a break from my workouts. I am so fucking exhausted. I'm hoping to recharge over vacation next week and come back strong. I will still be logging my food and posting it here but since I will only be posting what I eat, I'm only going to post on Saturdays for the next two weeks. I swear, I'm not going to disappear. Melty will kill me if I don't kill me first!

Monday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12] - I didn't drink it all so I have no idea how many points I actually consumed. When in doubt, overestimate.
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - salad w/ avocado & light vidalia onion dressing [12]

Tuesday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - yogurt [3]
Dinner - meatballs & salad w/ light Asian dressing [18]

I also had some tempura chicken and rice but didn't log it. I didn't eat tons. Enough to make me feel guilty, though.

Wednesday

Breakfast - coffee w/Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - steak & sweet potato [12]
Snack - En

Thursday

Breakfast - coffee w/Splenda and creamer
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - meatballs [15]
Snack - English muffin w/ butter [8]

Friday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer
Lunch - grilled chicken pico guacamole sandwich & fries (just a few) from McDonald's
Dinner - half a salad w/ lite dressing & pepperoni
Snack - trail mix - not tons but probably more than I should have had

I didn't log any of this.

Saturday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken salad on rye bread
Snack - bagel w/ butter

I didn't log this, either.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Day 43 - NROL - Blah Blah

I just cannot get my shit together. I'm distracted because work is so busy, and I will be on vacation after this coming week. At first, I thought I would have plenty of time to work out properly while on vacation, then I decided to get a tattoo on my chest the first day, so I won't be lifting that week. I can still do Turbo Jam, so I will get caught up on the Fat Blasters I've missed. Plus, my boss is giving me a recumbent exercise bike - I will be picking that up Saturday. I hope to get lots of use out of that on my vacation, too. Mainly, I wanted it for my son. I told him he has no choice - he is getting some damn exercise.

But anyway...I think the only reason I'm not falling completely off the wagon is because I have a list of all the workouts I want to do. I feel like if I just follow the list, I will be okay. Rather than scheduling the NROL workouts for specific days and having target end dates for completing each one, I just check off the workouts as I go. It's a big list but I feel a lot less pressure and don't hate myself nearly as much when I don't workout.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - string cheese & apple [6]
Dinner - egg & turkey burger on light English muffin [9]

I'm not eating enough. That's why I can't get my shit together. But I can't focus enough to plan and prep. I feel like I'm drowning in responsibility and resentment.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Day 42 - NROL - Blah

I really wasn't in the mood to work out today. I don't know what's up lately.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Denny's - I got a burger and fries, didn't even eat it all. I also didn't log it.

Friday, May 12, 2017

Day 41 - NROL - Fat Loss 1A

It's sad that I looked forward to this workout only because it's not 1B. I also phoned it in because I hadn't eaten in almost 24 hours  :/

Workout

(db) squat - 3x15x25 lbs
lying dumbbell row - 3x15x15 lbs
supine hip extension - 3x15
dumbbell push press - 3x15x15 lbs
(reverse/single db) rotational lunge - 3x15x10 lbs
Swiss ball crunch - 3x15x10 lbs

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - apple & hard boiled eggs [4]
Dinner - pork loin w/ onions & peppers on naan [??]
Snack - Subway cookie [10] - Damn it. I'm weak.

And after that cookie, I sort of lost my grip. I had a few bites of macaroni salad and a big bowl of Reeses Puff cereal. I thought i was going to lose it completely but I managed to regain control. I didn't log that shit though :(

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Day 40 - NROL - Rest Day

I was supposed to do Fat Blaster today but I was tired.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - yogurt & apple [3]
Dinner - chicken [8]
Snack - pizza [14]

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Day 39 - NROL - Fat Loss 1B

My legs and ass still sting from Monday's workout so I was particularly dreading this. The workout took longer than I thought it would and it was brutal, even at these pussy weights.

Workout

deadlift - 3x15x45 lbs
db incline bench press - 3x15x20 lbs
Bulgarian split squat - 3x15xbodyweight - It will be a LONG time before I can add weight to these fuckers
mixed grip lat pulldown - 3x15x38 lbs
Romanian deadlift - 3x15x45 lbs - I think I need to go up on this because I should be able to RDL more than I CDL but damn, I'm worn out by the time I get to these.
Swiss ball lateral roll - 3x15

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt [3]
Dinner - roast w/ onions & peppers [9]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Day 38 - NROL - Turbo Jam Fat Blaster

It's been a long while since I've done Fat Blaster and I was totally uncoordinated. Still, I felt like I got a good workout.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - chicken breast & green beans [3]
Dinner - thin crust pizza [14]
Snack - spouted bagel flat w/ cream cheese [12]

Monday, May 8, 2017

Day 37 - NROL - Fat Loss 1A

Ok, this wasn't as bad as I was expecting. It's only one set more than Break In was so I guess I can live with it.

Workout

(db) squat - 3x15x25 lbs
lying dumbbell row - 3x15x15 lbs
supine hip extension - 3x15
dumbbell push press - 3x15x10 lbs
(reverse/single db) rotational lunge - 3x15x10 lbs
Swiss ball crunch - 3x15x10 lbs

The lying db row should be a cable seated row but, except for lat pulls, I don't have anything to do cable rows. The rotational lunge is not supposed to be a reverse lunge but I feel like I get better depth when I do the reverse lunge. And let me tell you, these suck. They will kick your ass. I had to go really slowly because my balance blows. I loved them. I hated them.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12] - I didn't even get to drink all of it.
Lunch - yogurt & cucumber salad [5]
Dinner - chicken breast & cucumber salad [7]
Snack - hard boiled eggs & pepper slices, apple [6]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Day 36 - NROL - Prep Day

That's a non-lazy way of saying I had no workout today. Tomorrow kicks off the Fat Loss phase of NROL. I really hate this phase. It's high rep. It sucks.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - sausage on potato bun [12]
Dinner - chicken & sweet potato [
Snack - apple & cottage cheese [5]

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Day 35 - Eff It Day

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - sausage w/ onions & peppers on bun [24]

I wasn't going to bother tracking but figured I would hate myself if I didn't.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Day 34 - Going back to NROL

I have to go back to lifting and Turbo Jam. 22 Minutes Hard Corps is a fine workout but it's just not for me. I'm not motivated to push myself and I miss the pump I get from lifting and Turbo. So back to it Sunday. And I'm not even off track because Lou recommends a week off between Break In and Fat Loss.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - beef jerky [6]
Dinner - Taco Bell taco salad & pinto beans w/ cheese [??]
Snackr - M&M McFlurry [31] - Good thing it's the end of the week.

Also, a bag of peanut M&Ms for 11 points. Bah.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Day 33 - 22 Minutes Hard Corps - Resistance 1 & Cardio 2

Starting to get caught up on the workouts I missed due to being lazy. Some of the moves, I couldn't even do. Most of the rest, I had to modify. Just because I'm exhausted.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - chicken breast & peppers [6]
Dinner - apple & cottage cheese [6]

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Day 32 - 22 Minutes Hard Corps - No Workout Today Either :(

I'll have to double up tomorrow and Friday. I got practically no sleep, didn't eat and I really just want to go to bed so I don't kill anyone.

And no, I am not falling off the wagon.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - roast w/ onions & peppers [7]

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Day 31 - 22 Minutes Hard Corps - No Workout :(

Today sucked. Don't ask.

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - spouted bagel w/ cream cheese [12]
Dinner - Nothing

Monday, May 1, 2017

Day 30 - 22 Minutes Hard Corps - Cardio 1 & Core 1

On Mondays and Wednesdays, I have to work out in the evening, which I hate because then I have the entire day to dread it. Today was no exception. I've previewed 22MHC and it doesn't look that scary but still - I like knowing I can just come home and sit on my ass. Not any more, kids!

I did the Cold Start (warm up) before jumping in, since there's practically no warm up in the actual workouts. Cold start is about 12 minutes of "light" cardio and stretching. By itself, it is kind of a workout. Damn you, Tony Horton.

Cardio 1 sucked. I mean, I like the workout but I couldn't keep up with the pace for half the moves. Hopefully that will get better with time.

Core 1 sucked too. I despise floor work. I don't know if I'm going to keep doing it. My tail bone always hurts like a mother fucker on the floor and I've never found good padding.

Overall, I think I will enjoy this workout.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken breast & sweet potato [12]

So much for trying to eat more.

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Day 29 - 22 Minutes Hard Corps - Fit Test

So this is the kind of fit test I like. Just 5 exercises and no need to play along with Gasbag Tony.

push ups (1 minute) - 17 on my knees
squat thrust (10 lb dbs in 1 minute) - 15...the weight was too heavy. It was the overhead press part that killed me.
pull ups or dead hang (max/for time) - 10 seconds
jumping jacks (1 minute) - 46
forearm plank hold (max time) - 20 seconds

My arms were wrecked after the squat thrusts so I don't think I did as well as I could have on the hang and the plank.

And for the record, I weighed in at 144 pounds today.

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - protein shake [7]
Dinner - Chinese food [I don't even know] - I was hungry but really didn't eat THAT much.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Day 28 - 11 Week Challenge Wrap Up

So, I started this nonsense 11 weeks ago. Honestly, I'm shocked I've kept with it. I've lost 16 pounds, as of this morning. Tomorrow I will start something new. I am going to do Beachbody's 22 Minutes Hard Corps with Tony Horton. After 9 weeks of that (8 regular weeks + 1 Hell Week), I will pick up NROL where I left off. That's always the plan - do NROL for a while, then do something else for a bit, go back to NROL where I left off.  Honestly, I'm just not looking forward to the Fat Loss phase of NROL. It sucks because it's high rep.

I'm also going to stop focusing on weight loss. Eating at a deficit is messing me up, mentally and physically. I have zero energy for my workouts, and the workouts are what I want to focus on. I want to be fit, not thin. So I've changed my logging apps over to Maintenance. I still plan to log everything, just going to maintenance levels. I'm still overweight but I don't care right now.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - salad w/ light Vidalia onion dressing [4] - But I didn't even eat all of it. I did not eat fucking salad and I was too lazy to make any real food. I eventually made a turkey burger and egg on an English muffin [11]

Friday, April 28, 2017

Day 27 - NROL - Break In B

I know you're not supposed to do strength training that works the same muscle groups two days in a row but fuck it. I wanted to finish Break In and I have shit to do tomorrow. My Turbo was better today, at least. Still, the workout kicked my ass.

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x45 lbs
static lunge - 2x15xbodyweight
one arm db shoulder press - 2x15x15 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x38 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - apple & cottage cheese [6]
Dinner - I really wasn't in the mood to eat.
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

No wonder I'm so fucking worn out.

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Day 26 - NROL - Break In A

Gah! Today sucked so fucking hard! I did my Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout before lifting and it was like I half assed it. I has no energy at all. I was so upset that I made myself do the whole damn thing a second time, and I didn't even make it to half assed. So I had a three-quarter ass attempt at cardio today. Lifting sucked too. I don't know what's wrong.

Workout - Break In A

(db) squat - 2x15x15 lbs
(db) static lunge - 2x15x10 lbs
db 2-point row - 2x15x15 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs & yogurt [9]
Dinner - chicken & green beans [3]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Day 25 - NROL - Rest Day

Have I mentioned how much I hate Wednesdays? And I didn't even work late last night.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - turkey burgers w/ mustard on light English muffin [18]

Not a lot going on today.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Day 24 - NROL - Break In B

Not my typical day...I had a conference for work so my hours were different and I didn't have any lunch options. So I estimated. I also didn't eat that much. After the conference, I actually got home earlier than normal, got my workout in. My Turbo calorie burn was pathetic.

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x45 lbs
static lunge - 2x15xbodyweight
one arm db shoulder press - 2x15x15 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x38 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - salad w/ Italian dressing, chicken w/ potatoes, green beans & roll [9]
Dinner - homemade pizza [14]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]


Monday, April 24, 2017

Day 23 - NROL - No workout today!

I was going to do my random Turbo Jam 20MWO but I had too much to do to prep for tomorrow. I still have time to get it in Wednesday or Friday.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Haha, you're kidding, right?
Dinner - chicken, avocado & lobster cake [14]
Snack - apple & string cheese [6]

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Day 22 - NROL - Break In A

I really wanted some fucking cheesecake last night. I had a few activity points left for the week, and I wouldn't have gone over too much on my calories (fuck the macros!) but in the end, I decided not to, especially after watching someone eat half the fucking cheesecake. And then this morning, when asked what the yoga mat was for, I got crappy comments. What the fuck, man. Every day is a struggle for me to eat right and be active. The lack of support is astounding. Granted, I am the one who bought the cheesecake but still. I get it, you can eat whatever you want and not gain weight. I don't care what you do but fuck you for being insensitive.

Workout - Break In A

(db) squat - 2x15x15 lbs
(db) static lunge - 2x15x10 lbs
db 2-point row - 2x15x15 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - apple & string cheese [6]
Dinner - chicken & avocado w/ salsa [8]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]
Snack - oatmeal w/ banana, peanut butter and Jif Whip [15]

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Day 21 - NROL - Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout

I had an odd 20MWO on the schedule that I needed to get done, but fuck it.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing. I was at work all day with junk food and didn't eat any of it. I should have brought my lunch though, because I was getting hangry.
Dinner - shrimp & pasta w/ crab cakes [21] - I definitely overate :(
Snack - chicken & banana [1] - It was literally an ounce of chicken. Just something to hold me over until dinner.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Day 20 - NROL - Break In B

I absolutely did not want to work out this morning but by the time the Turbo Jam music hit, I was pumped. I got in a pretty decent workout, even managing to increase my weights for some lifts. Go me!

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x45 lbs
static lunge - 2x15xbodyweight
one arm db shoulder press - 2x15x15 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x38 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - turkey burtger w/ mustard on light English muffin [9]
Dinner - salad w/ chicken and Asian sesame dressing [11]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]
Snack - beef jerky [4]

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Day 19 - NROL - Sick Day

I had a workout scheduled for today but I felt too run down to do it. I'm sure it's because I'm not eating enough. Whatever.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - banana & yogurt [5]
Dinner - hard boiled eggs & pepper slices [6]

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Day 18 - NROL - Rest Day

I know I said I was going to "move" Turbo to today but I'm not behind so I can take my scheduled rest day.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Italian sausage w/ peppers, onion & baked potato [15]

I really wanted some peanut butter cups but I didn't have enough points. I had enough calories but they didn't fit my macros. Not that I ever nail my macros...

Post script: Fuck it. I ate the peanut butter cups. 21 fucking points.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Day 17 - NROL - Break In A

I was definitely not feeling it today but I did it anyway. Turbo before lifting.

Workout - Break In A

(db) squat - 2x15x10 lbs
(db) static lunge - 2x15x5 lbs
db 2-point row - 2x15x15 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt & banana [5]
Dinner - green beans [0] - I had hard boiled eggs with me but didn't feel like eating them. I did end up eating a salad with ground beef, cheese & salsa because I was starting to get dizzy. [12]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

Yes, pretty much the same thing I ate yesterday. The salad put me over day points. Lol

Monday, April 17, 2017

Day 16 - NROL - Rest Day

I hate when my routine is thrown off. A coworker asked me to switch hours with her today and, since I'm such a nice girl, I said yes. And now it has me all messed up. I have to move my cardio to Wednesday and take my rest day today.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - banana & yogurt [5]
Dinner - hard boiled eggs & green beans [6]

Today was frustrating but I had no desire to eat junk to comfort me. So that's progress.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Day 15 - NROL - Beachbody!

I'm not supposed to be getting on the scale until the end of each phase but I hopped on for the second time this week and I'm down another 2 pounds. That's with eating Subway and manicotti and garlic bread this week. I decided to celebrate by gifting myself a 12-month subscription to Beachbody On Demand, even though I already own a lot of the workouts. I don't really have a specific plan for BOD. I still want to do my NROL shit as outlined. I do need to be more active, so I might use some of the programs to supplement my activity. I don't know. They are paid for and they are there, so who knows? I've been at this 9 weeks now and I felt semi-confident pulling the trigger on an investment. Granted, it wasn't all that expensive but I'm cheap.

Next step is to quit fucking smoking so I can do the damn cardio.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - chicken breast & carrots [5]
Dinner - cream cheese & bacon stuffed chicken breasts w/ baked potato [19]

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Day 14 - NROL - Break In B

My Inactivity Stamp Challenge went well - I got 3!

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x45 lbs
step up - 2x15xbodyweight
one arm db shoulder press - 2x15x10 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x32 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

And I did Turbo before lifting.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - manicotti & garlic bread [22]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

I blew my daily points and carbs for the day, but I had weekly points and calories left for the day, so whatever.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Day 13 - NROL - Inactivity Stamp Challenge

So my Polar gives me inactivity stamps if I don't get up and move periodically. The most I've received in a day is 2. I'm trying to break that record today. I'm taking a completely selfish and lazy day to watch 13 Reasons Why and fucking relax. And I don't even feel guilty.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - ground beef w/ cheese & salsa [15]
Dinner - pork chops & green beans [7] - This was the plan, anyway. I ended up not being hungry so I didn't eat.
Snack - baby carrots & broccoli [0]

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Day 12 - NROL - Break In A

So, I did do yesterday's workout today, before lifting. And I must say, it gave me a much better lifting session than usual. I think I may need to keep doing Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout as my lifting warm up. Though, I will have to re-think all the scheduled TJ20MWO on the list. I have 8 more scheduled until I start the next phase of NROL.

Workout - Break In A

(db) squat - 2x15x10 lbs
(db) static lunge - 2x15x5 lbs
db 2-point row - 2x15x15 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

I feel like this workout kind of kicked my ass. It's much better than lifting then Turbo.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs [6]
Dinner - chicken & green beans [6]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

It helped that I was super motivated after getting on the scale. Expecting to be up thanks to last night's dinner, I was down 2 pounds since my last weigh in. 12 total! I'm only 3.5 pounds away from my "I am kind of ok being this weight" weight.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Day 11 - NROL - Rest Day

Fuck Wednesdays right in the fucking eye. I am always so damn tired. I will probably Turbo after lifting tomorrow to "catch up" but no promises. My allergies are kicking my ass.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Spenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Subway [18]

I also didn't feel like cooking.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Day 10 - NROL - Break In B

When I got up this morning, I was going back and forth as to when I would work out - before work, when I had plenty of time, or after, when I would be rushed. Even though the workout takes 15 minutes, tops, I wasn't really in the mood to do it this morning. I also knew I wouldn't be in the mood to do it tonight, so I went ahead and got it out of the way. I'm glad I did. Knowing I don't have that looming in the night helps.

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x35 lbs
step up - 2x15xbodyweight
one arm db shoulder press - 2x15x10 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x32 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

I probably should increase my weights for the next time.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [4]
Lunch - iced coffee w/ milk & protein powder [9] - This didn't totally suck. I was shocked. I didn't drink all of it though...maybe 2/3 of it. Still counting all that points.
Dinner - chicken & sweet potato [9]
Snack - yogurt [3]  toast w/ butter [9]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]

Monday, April 10, 2017

Day 9 - NROL - Rest Day

I am so not feeling it today. All I want is my coffee.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken & sweet potato [9]

I still have 9 points left and haven't cracked 800 calories but I can't find anything to eat that I actually want and won't make my carb count way over. I'm so fucking miserable. Must be to eat a whole pint of ice cream with no regard for the person sitting next to you who is struggling to make good choices.

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Day 8 - NROL - Break In A

I wasn't too horrible yesterday. I had a burger and onion rings for dinner, and ice cream for dessert. Not tons, but more than I should have had. And I felt sick after. Ugh.

Back at it today. I decided I needed to be tracking my juice that I take my creatine with. Just 2 ounces and it's 2 points. Fuck these points. Ugh again.

Workout - Break In A

squat - 2x15xbodyweight
lunge - 2x15xbodyweight
db 2-point row - 2x15x10 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

This is the workout I missed yesterday, and I did today's Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout. I tested out some new flooring. I couldn't find what I wanted at Home Depot so I got a couple rugs and flipped them over, taped them together. It's better than trying to Turbo on carpet but still not slick enough for all the twisting. Maybe I need different shoes. I'm still pissed off that I'm not as good at Turbo Jam as I once was. And tomorrow is a scheduled rest day but I may Turbo. I don't know. My legs are always so damn tired. Maybe a walk tomorrow instead.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [4]
Lunch - cottage cheese [6]
Dinner - roast w/ green beans, onions & peppers [6]
PWO - juice w/ creatine [2]
Snack - hard boiled eggs, peppers and baby carrots [6]

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Day 7 - NROL - Eff It Day

Don't worry - I will be back on my game tomorrow. Today was full of suckage and I just want to sleep.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Day 6 - NROL - Dance Fitness With Jessica

It was supposed to be Turbo Jam day but I wanted to switch things up a bit and finally do some Dance Fitness With Jessica. She's the one who did the Katy Perry Dark Horse workout. I did three of her videos. I was going to do them twice through but I was so uncoordinated and the carpet keeps me from moving well, and I just got pissed off, so I only did it once and burned a whopping 74 calories. I should have just stayed on the couch watching Riverdale and having inappropriate thoughts about Cole Sprouse.


This one is a bucket list item. I get to cross that off now.


Love me some JT, especially this song.


This one was a little hard to do on carpet but so much fun.


Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - cottage cheese [7]

And then I lost it. 

Ok, so I'm 7 weeks (?) in and I'm over so much. I hate tracking my food. I hate points. I love my workouts but I'm frustrated that I'm not where I was way back when. Yes, I realize I've been out of the game for 5 years and I have to work back to that sweet spot. It just pisses me off. I remember what I could do and how my body looked, and I absolutely hate myself for not sticking with it. I hate that I'm not losing weight faster. I hate that I can't allow myself junk food, and I hate that when I do, I hate myself. So much hate and anger. I'm fucking Anakin when he turned to the Dark Side.

But yeah, I ended up eating some meatballs and trail mix, and was so angry. Thank Flying Spaghetti Monster that there wasn't anything else appealing in the house, and that I was too lazy to go to the store. I estimated in MFP and iTrackBites but it was probably a low estimate. 71 points and about 1900 calories. Ugh.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Day 5 - NROL - Break In B

So, I suck. After I posted last night, I ate a ton more meatballs and some cheesecake, and I didn't track them. FML.

Workout - Break In B

deadlift - 2x15x35 lbs
step up - 2x15xbodyweight
db one arm shoulder press - 2x15x10 lbs
close grip lat pulldown - 2x15x32 lbs
reverse crunch - 2x20

I went light because I had no idea what I could do for 15 reps. I can go up next time.

I also did the Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout I skipped yesterday.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - cottage cheese [7]
Dinner - meatballs [15]

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Day 4 - NROL - Rest Day

I got up this morning and immediately started dreading the evening's workout. Wednesdays fucking suck balls. I wonder if I should take them as my rest days. I didn't even leave work until much later than normal and there was too much to do at home, so yeah, I guess Wednesdays will be my rest days and I will do my cardio tomorrow.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - salad w/ Italian dressing, meatballs [21]

Over in daily points with one weekly point remaining. Hit my calorie goal, almost. Just a tad under.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Day 3 - NROL - Break In A

I wasn't going to bother with my HRM strap for my workout because I figured it would be quick and easy. I was right about the quick part. Easy? No, not even using bodyweight only for squats and lunges. I was dead when I finished. I hate high reps.

Workout - Break In A

squat - 2x15xbodyweight
static lunge - 2x15xbodyweight
db 2-point row - 2x15x10 lbs
push up (knees) - 2x15
Swiss ball crunch - 2x20

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [2] - I only had a little bit.
Lunch - pepper slices & hard boiled eggs [6]
Dinner - salad w/ chicken & Italian dressing [9]
Snack - plantain chips & carrots [5]

I couldn't even eat my cottage cheese when I got home. I just was not hungry. So way under points and calories today.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Day 2 - NROL - Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout

So, I spent a good deal of time last night putting together my lunches for the week. I was pretty pleased with all of it. And then I didn't feel like lugging my lunch box with me.

Workout

I did Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout today. Gotta ease back into cardio. And I love me some Turbo Jam. It was exhausting and a little painful. I remember when I could do this work out without breaking a sweat, and with high intensity. Damn, I suck.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - salad w/ chicken, hard boiled eggs & Italian dressing [13]

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Day1 - NROL - Fit Test

This is it. Day 1 of like 1500+. I'm dreading it and I'm excited. Mostly, I just hope I can stick with it.

So last night, I did end up eating the rest of my Chinese food and some chocolate cake. And I regretted it all night because I couldn't sleep, despite taking my sleeping pills, and I wanted to throw up until early morning. The damage wasn't that bad. I weighed in at 150.5 today, up 1.5 pounds from last week's low. I'm not too disappointed because I expected it, and I know it's pretty much water weight.

And I've already blown through my weekly points for the week. I met my work wife for Starbucks. We haven't seen each other in months, and I really miss that bitch since she left to work somewhere else. But it was totally worth it.

Workout - Fit Tests

Insanity
  • switch kicks - 82
  • power jacks- 25
  • power knees - 54
  • power jumps - 12
  • globe jumps - 5
  • suicide jumps (burpees) - 9
  • push up jacks - 4
  • low plank obliques - 16
Insanity Asylum (I've never done this one before)
  • agility Heisman - 4
  • in & out ab progression - 11
  • pull ups/push ups - 0
  • mountain climber switch kicks - 42
  • agility shoulder taps - 2
  • X jumps - 10
  • moving push ups - 0
  • agility lateral shuffle - 7
  • agility bear crawl - 3
P90X
  • resting heart rate/VO2 max - 75 bpm/28
  • pull ups - 0 - I didn't even try.
  • vertical leap - 9.5"
  • push ups - 5
  • toe touch - -2.5"
  • wall squat - 0:32
  • bicep curls - 12  @ 10 lbs
  • in & outs - 7
  • heart rate maximizer - This is 2 minutes of jumping jacks, with the last 30 seconds all out, with your heart rate after 1, 2, 3, and 4 minutes. Immediately after the jacks, my heart rate was 158 bpm and then 134, 121, 112,107
I only wore my heart rate monitor for the Insanity tests, and the P90X maximizer, for 53 minutes and 272 calories. 

Why did I do all 3 fit tests? Because I'm stupid. Thank goodness I only do this once in a while. And I'll be honest, I was tired and didn't put my best effort into it. And for the Asylum fit test, I had never even watched it so I had no idea what to expect, and I did a piss poor job setting up my agility ladder. I don't have the one that comes with Asylum. I have one that is twice as long, and I learned I cannot do this particular fit test in my bedroom. Another thing I learned is that I absolutely must quit smoking if I'm going to do this. 

Food

Breakfast - venti java chip frappuccino from Starbucks [32] - And yes, I actually logged it in iTrackBites and MFP. It totally fucks with my head that it used up all my daily points plus some, but was "only" 600 calories. But it fit my fucking macros!
Lunch - Nothing, because I wasn't hungry and didn't have any daily points.
Dinner - eggs & sausage [22] - But it fit my fucking macros! I was still under 1300 calories for the day. Nowhere near my protein goal but close on carbs and fat.

I have 4 weekly points remaining, on the first day of my week. I'm thinking Weight Watchers style isn't going to work for me. I will stick with it, but also keep an eye on calories and macros. I have to work on my protein intake. Damn it, if I could just ditch my coffee creamer!

Saturday, April 1, 2017

31 Days - More NROL Blah Blah Blah

I am really excited to start NROL but I'm not really keen on adding cardio. I love my Turbo Jam and I want to work my way back to Insanity, because Shaun T is the fucking man. I tell myself I don't have time for cardio, but that's such bullshit.

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Chinese [all of them] - I gave no fucks tonight. It will be good for my "before" weigh in for NROL and I'll have a good loss after the water retention goes away. Except I have a Starbucks date in the morning with my work wife so there go next week's weekly points.

I actually wasn't that bad. I only ate half my Chinese food. And none of the chocolate cake I had planned to devour.

Friday, March 31, 2017

32 Days - Change of Plans

I decided not to do Stronglifts today. I spent a good six hours deep cleaning my apartment. My neck is all jacked up because I slept on it wrong the other night, and I really just want to rest up to start New Rules of Lifting on Sunday. Since I spent so much time making my pretty spreadsheets, I am damn well going to use the fucking things. I feel like I've been back at this long enough that I feel committed. I'll be taking pics and doing measurements and a Fit Test on Sunday. I haven't decided exactly what is going into it, but I will be pulling from the Insanity fit tests (from the original Insanity and Asylum), as well as P90X. I've never done the Asylum fit test so this should be fun. Pull ups are on the list and I already know I won't bother with that. I will take the big fat 0. I will say, I am not looking forward to the high reps of NROL's Break In workouts. But whatever.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - homemade bagel bite & pepperoni - [11]

Thursday, March 30, 2017

33 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Thursday

I spend way too much time thinking about working out and not enough time actually getting physical activity in.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - yogurt & hard boiled eggs [7]
Dinner - beef fajita salad w/ sour cream, salsa & cheese [12]

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

34 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Wednesday

I really wanted some junk food last night - Girl Scout Cookies or ice cream. But I didn't give in to temptation. I gave in to anger instead, and just went to bed. But I knew if I ate a cookie, I would eat the box.

Workout A-3

squat - 5x5x85 lbs - Yes, same as last time. I wasn't all that comfortable with my squat the other day.
bench press - 5x5x65 lbs - I did go up on this one. 5 pounds more than I was supposed to. Oops.
barbell row - 5x5x65 lbs - This one, too.

I am leaning towards adding to the Stronglifts workouts next week, then switching to BGB in May. I don't know what accessory exercises I could add because my muscles are just toast when I finish these. I just don't care for the routine in general. I don't know. Fuck me.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Italian sausage and potatoes [13]

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

35 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Tuesday

I really, really do not enjoy the Stronglifts workouts. I don't know what to do. Stick it out for 5 more weeks or do something else next week? I want to go back to my BGB four day push/pull split because I absolutely adore it. Fuck, I don't know. I do know that I need to stay off the scale. I ate food yesterday and I'm up a pound. Maybe I should not get back on until my birthday. I don't know. Such a mind fuck, seeing that number go up.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - salad w/ chicken, hard boiled eggs & Italian dressing [10]
Dinner - breakfast sausage [15] - Someone ate my fucking eggs.

Monday, March 27, 2017

36 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Monday

Regular coffee today, folks.It's Monday. I think I need regular coffee on Mondays and Wednesdays. I'll shoot for cold brewed on Tuesdays & Thursdays.

Workout B-2

squat - 5x5x85 lbs
overhead press - 5x5x45 lbs - Yes, I know this is what I did last week, but since I couldn't complete that last set, I'm repeating the weight.
deadlift - 5x5x95 lbs

There is no way in hell I am increasing my weights for the next round. These were difficult and I think my form was off.

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt & pepper slices [3]
Dinner - omelet w/ pepperoni, cheese and salsa [14]

I'm not happy with the amount of food I ate today but whatever. I need to eat. Still working on hitting those macros.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

37 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Sunday

So, going into Week 7, I've lost 11.5 pounds. Yes, I know it's because I'm hardly eating, basically living on my coffee creamer. I know that shit has to stop. I have to get over this fucking mental hurdle. This is why I hate trying to lose weight. It fucks with my head. I feel guilty eating anything, and all I want is junk, my comfort food.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6] - I'm going to start iced coffee tomorrow. Hopefully I will like that better with the protein powder and milk.
Lunch - tuna w/ light mayo on light English muffin [8]
Dinner - I was going to eat, but I got pissed off so fuck it.
Snack - banana [0]

Saturday, March 25, 2017

38 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Saturday

I am really a cranky fucking bitch today. I'm tired. I'm stressed. I want to eat total crap and my weight loss is slow. I still look like a giant blob. Why the fuck am I doing this? I'm hella resentful that I can't eat what I want.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10] - I am actually starting to scale back on shit a bit.

Friday, March 24, 2017

39 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Friday

I am not really enjoying Stronglifts. I like that it takes 20 minutes or less to work out, but I feel like 3 exercises are not enough. I have 5 more weeks of this countdown challenge, then I am going to switch programs again. I really, really want to do all the NROL programs straight through. I printed out all my spreadsheets for all of the programs. I have to create a new calendar for it. The one I created last year won't work. Because I didn't start. At least it will give me a chance to play with my spreadsheets.

Workout A-2

squat - 5x5x80 lbs
bench press - 5x5x55 lbs
barbell row - 5x5x55 lbs

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10]
Lunch - Air [0]
Dinner - tuna w/ light mayonnaise and celery on light English muffin [7]

Thursday, March 23, 2017

40 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Thursday

My legs and shoulders are sore today :(

Food

Breakfast - coffee a/ Splenda & creamer [4]
Lunch - banana, hard boiled eggs, green beans & peppers [6]
Dinner - I didn't bother. I'm bitter that I'm afraid to eat food I enjoy.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

41 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Wednesday

I am really not crazy about coffee with milk and protein powder. It's not awful, and I can drink it. It's just not my coffee. I'm hoping I just need time to adjust. Today was the first day taking my two big cups to work with no creamer. It's still the same number of points (that I was counting) but the macros are better. I've been way over on carbs lately, mostly because of the creamer. I could eat so much more if I could give it up. Calorie-wise, I'm saving about 200 calories with the protein powder. Bah! It sucks.

Workout B-1

squat - 5x5x75 lbs
overhead press - 5x5x45 lbs
deadlift - 1x5x85 lbs

The overhead presses were fucking brutal. By my last set, I couldn't do a 5 in a row. I did 3, racked the bar for a minute, then did the last 2. There is no way in hell I can increase it to 50 pounds next week. No. Way.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ milk & protien powder [11]
Lunch - Nothing. I was still choking down my coffee.
Dinner - pork loin & quinoa bean salad [14]

I was under on points (again) and really under calories. I hit my carb goal for the day but was way under on protein and fat. It took everything in me just to eat all my dinner. I really need to work on eating during the day. I packed a good lunch for tomorrow but a lot depends on what I decide for coffee creamer when I get up.

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

42 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Tuesday

No time for chit chat today!

Food 

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Snack - banana & peppers [0]
Lunch - chicken breast and quinoa bean salad [10]
Dinner - yogurt [3]

I was hungry as fuck this morning and actually ate my lunch at lunch time.

Monday, March 20, 2017

43 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Monday

I did some more research on Stronglifts last night. Mainly in the Starting Strength forum, with a heated battle over the two programs. I've attempted Starting Strength before. Or I was going to do it. I don't remember. I've been doing this shit for 10 years, come August. Holy shit. I can't believe I started weight lifting a decade ago. I feel like I should be more ripped by now. Anyway, both sides made good points, and I will probably stick with Stronglifts until I stall out, then switch.

I decided to go ahead and do my workout today, instead of tomorrow morning.

Workout A-1

squat - 5x5x70 lbs
bench press - 5x5x45 lbs - I did these on the floor, from my rack pull stands because I didn't feel like dicking with my squat rack.
barbell row - 5x5x45 lbs - Honestly, this was a little light, too.

That's it. It took 11 minutes because I paired the squat and the row and didn't need a lot of rest time. For Wednesday, I am definitely going to increase the weight on the rows and presses, and I will press from my weight bench. I'm a little scared to go up on the squat weight, even by 5 pounds because that shit is not easy. I guess that is the point. I'm going to have to start using a spotter, which means I'm at the mercy of other people's schedules. So annoying. Speaking of annoying, the Stronglifts app sucks balls. It will not save my workouts. So I will just use the spreadsheet.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing.
Dinner - chicken w/ quinoa bean salad [11]

Sunday, March 19, 2017

44 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Sunday

I don't even know what week this is...Week 6, I think? I've lost 8.5 pounds since I started this nonsense. I'm not really unhappy, but I wouldn't be me if I didn't bitch about something. I am not crazy about Weight Watchers. It does help me make better choices, but I also find myself checking my macros to see what I really have room for. I always have room for protein and fat. I rarely have room for carbs. I'm still working on perfecting my coffee creamer substitution. I know I have to make the switch permanently. Bah.

I made the mistake of going grocery shopping without a list or a meal plan for the week. The only thing I ended up getting myself is a can of fucking green beans. The rest of the food is for the other fuckers who live here and "yuck" at anything I'm eating. I want spaghetti squash, god damn it, but no one else will touch it. It's hard to try to eat healthy, and even harder when you get zero moral support. It pisses me off and makes me resentful. I just want to live alone so I don't have to worry about what other people want to eat.

What I need to do is sit down and really plan out about two weeks worth of recipes, plan out the points/macros. Create shopping lists from that. Ugh. I hate how I have to shop for different ways of eating. Fortunately for me, I have no problem eating the same few things over and over. I can live on cottage cheese, eggs, chicken, fish, bell peppers, sweet potatoes, oatmeal with bananas, and green beans. I'm slowly getting my son away from pizza and shit like that. If we have pizza, it's homemade. He does eat a lot of crispy chicken strips and baked fries. He likes hot dogs. I bought him a fucking hot dog toaster. I am slowly making progress with him. I buy very little junk snack food. I don't know if he is losing weight. I don't want to harp on him about it. I stress that we need to make healthy food choices and be more active. The active part is the harder part. I am waiting for the damn weather to get warmer so we can go for walks. He said he would use a treadmill if I bought one, and I probably would too, but I don't really have the room for one and probably wouldn't really use it all that much, no matter how much I say I would.

Of course, I'm always thinking about workouts. I was Googling around and rediscovered Stronglifts. I have looked at it before. It's fairly simple, and I really want simple. Thinking about what I want for my body, I just want to get strong. And they have a free app that tells you what to do based on what you can already do. I tried barbell overhead presses for the first time today, just one set of five with the weight the app recommended for me. And I mother fucking did it. I've never done an OHP with a barbell in my life. Three exercises, three times a week - 5x5, except for deadlifts which are 1x5. Yes fucking please. So I think I am going to switch to that, starting this week (as you can see by my title). My birthday will be the halfway point of the program. I really want to hit my squat and deadlift goals - this program will put me right there for deadlifts at the end of the 12 weeks. Assuming I can progress each week, that is.

I had to do measurements to calculate my bodyfat percentage. I'm not buying the accuracy of the calculator I used (27% but that seems low) but I think as long as I see a downward trend using the same calculator, I think I will be ok. I lost my calipers in one of my moves. Anyway, the point I wanted to make is that my gut is an inch smaller than it was five weeks ago.

Food

Breakfast - coffee, duh [6]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs [6]
Snack - quinoa & bean salad [8] - God damn, I have missed quinoa. I just had a little bit and it seems like there are more servings in the batch than I calculated. I did my numbers based on 4 servings and portioned out half a serving. It didn't even make a dent.
Dinner - oatmeal w/ peanut butter, Nutella and banana [12]

45 Days

I am struggling to get back into the right frame of mind after not being so diligent yesterday.

Workout C

stability ball jackknife - 3x8
glute-ham raise - 3x8
db skullcrusher - 3x8x12.5 lbs
rack pull - 3x8x85 lbs
split squat - 5x5x10 lbs
renegade row - 5x5x10 lbs

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12] - I still had creamer and I'm still perfecting my protein coffee so..
Lunch - fat free cottage cheese [2]
Dinner - pan fried tilapia w/ green beans [6]


Friday, March 17, 2017

46 Days

Ok, the secret to being "okay" with my coffee the last month has been not counting all the damn points. I also wasn't eating my weekly or activity points to help with that. But I have finally found something that works for me. I found a protein powder I like and mix it with milk (for now - I would eventually like to mix it with just water). It doesn't taste as good as my beloved creamer but I can tolerate it, and it helps me get more protein. It's almost too sweet now, with my typical Splenda amounts, so I may be able to cut back on that, too. Progress.

Food

Breakfast - coffee [7] - Actual points, not alternative points. I also didn't drink as much as I normally do. I expect my typical coffee consumption to still come in somewhere around 10-12 points, but I don't have to worry about not eating my weekly points to compensate.
Lunch - steak, egg and cheese omelet [16]
Dinner - macaroni and coleslaw [??] - I didn't log this because I have no idea how much I ate. It wasn't a ton but enough to make me feel like a failure.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

47 Days

I decided not to work out this morning, and opted for an evening workout so I could take a nice, well-deserved Calgon bath afterward. It was a wise choice.

Workout B

db pull over - 3x8x15 lbs
front/side raise - 3x8x7.5 lbs
Romanian deadlift - 5x5x85 lbs
inverted row - 5x5
db hammer curl - 3x8x10 lbs
db row - 3x8x15 lbs

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - fat free cottage cheese [4]
Dinner - hard boiled eggs w/ pepper slices & green beans [4]

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

48 Days

It is way too fucking cold to think. I'm glad I had no workout scheduled for today. I am looking forward to tomorrow, though!

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - vegetable soup [0]
Dinner - pork chops w/ coleslaw & fries [20]

Not a whole lot to say today.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

49 Days

I did not work out today because I was up all god damn night and I was tired as fuck. No worries though - I was planning on switching my workout days next week anyway, to Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. Since I worked out Sunday, I figured it was ok to skip today and just do Thursday and Saturday.

More small victories with the creamer. I used less today than yesterday, and I actually measured. It is definitely not what I really love, but it doesn't taste like ass.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10]
Lunch - salad w/ hard boiled eggs & homemade Italian dressing [9]
Dinner - chicken breast w/ peas & rice [8] - The second half of yesterday's dinner.

Monday, March 13, 2017

50 Days

Small victories. I was able to cut back on some of my creamer this morning. Not enough to lower the points, though. I am going to do some experimenting this weekend.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken breast w/ peas& rice [8] - I planned out what I wanted and ended up only eating half of it.

Sunday, March 12, 2017

51 Days

It's been four weeks and I'm down 6.5 pounds. I still look forward to my workouts. I think about ways to improve my form and this week, I am increasing my weights just a bit. Today's workout was good. The shoulder presses sucked but hopefully that will improve over the next couple weeks.

Workout A

squat - 5x5x70 lbs - up from last week
db shoulder press - 5x5x25 lbs - also up from last week
push up - 3x8 - on my knees, my depth sucks
SHELC - 3x8 - I need to increase my reps
standing calf raise - 3x8x70 lbs - also up
db fly - 3x8x15 lbs - up, as well


Food

Breakfast - coffee w/Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - apple & cottage cheese [6]
Dinner - homemade pizza [18] - Yes, I hate myself.

Saturday, March 11, 2017

52 Days

I am really hating Weight Watchers. I hate obsessing about points and being afraid to eat. I think about switching to the Simply Filling Technique a lot but...I am opposed to fat-free dairies and dressings. Not that I use a tremendous amount of those (aside from the coffee creamer). I can live with fat-free cottage cheese but fat-free cheese? Oh hell no. Sour cream? Yeah, I guess I could do fat-free but I'm not buying separate sour creams when I really don't use it all that much. Milk? My son likes whole milk, as do I. I prefer skim but again, not buying a fat-free version when I use so little.

And then there is the "eat until satisfied" aspect of it. I am actually pretty good at that, though I will finish something on my plate even if I'm full, just because it tastes good. It doesn't take a lot to satisfy my hunger, as long as I eat the right foods throughout the day. It's the "oh my god, I only have 10 points left for the day but if I eat something I won't be able to eat dinner" bullshit that fucks me up.

So, maybe what I will do is eat SFT style, still track, but not worry about how many points I eat (as long as they are from the Power Foods list). For shits and giggles, I went over to IIFYM Macro Diet to see what my macros would be under that program, and let me say - I like what I see.

Protein Grams: 116
Fat Grams: 62Carbs Grams: 87 <---- strong="">That covers my coffee creamer, which comes in around 50-60 grams of sugar. But then I still need to eat enough good carbs to get all the fiber.Fiber Grams: 23-23
1370 Calories Total 

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - sushi & cheese [6] - I only had one piece of a California roll.
Dinner - steak w/ salad and sweet potato [15]

Friday, March 10, 2017

53 Days

Stupid me got on the scale and I'm up again. WTF, man. I'm NOT overeating, even if my coffee points are a little underestimated. I don't eat my weekly or activity points for that reason. Mother fucker.

Today was my day off from everything. Except spending 5 hours in the car. There's actually an option to add driving as an activity on the iTrackBites app. Yeah, no...

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer, banana [12]
Lunch - Chik-fil-A grilled chicken nuggets & fries [8] - :( But I only ate half the fries :) Still, I felt guilty.
Dinner - Guilt [0]

Thursday, March 9, 2017

54 Days

Today's workout was a lot more challenging than it looks on paper. The last pair about killed me. The load wasn't even heavy!

Workout C

stability ball jackknife - 3x8
glute-ham raise - 3x8
db skullcrusher - 3x8x10 lbs
rack pull - 3x8x85 lbs
db split squat - 5x5x10 lbs
renegade row - 5x5x10 lbs

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer, banana [12]
Lunch - yogurt [5]
Dinner - salad w/ chicken and Italian dressing [6]
Snack - hard boiled eggs [4]


Wednesday, March 8, 2017

55 Days

I didn't plan my day well. Wait, that is not right. I intentionally didn't bother packing a lunch because my day was going to be so busy, I wouldn't have time to eat anyway. At least it was my early day and I got to come home and make dinner.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & reamer [12]
Lunch - nothing
Dinner - Italian sausage & potatoes [14]

Not a whole lot to say today. It was busy and I am tired.

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

56 Days

I wasn't all that forward to working out today because my muscles still ache from Sunday's workout. Nevertheless, I persisted. I'm so glad I don't have anything scheduled for tomorrow. I want to die.

Workout B

db pullover - 3x8x10 lbs - Definitely increasing the weight next week.
front/side raise - 3x8x5 - Definitely not increasing the weight next week.
RDL - 5x5x85 lbs
inverted row - 5x5
db hammer curl - 3x8x10 lbs
db row - 3x8x10 lbs

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs w/ sliced peppers [5]
Snack - banana & yogurt [4]
Dinner - Nothing, because I ate my other good late.

Monday, March 6, 2017

57 Days

My body hurts today. All over. I didn't cardio before work.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - salad w/ cottage cheese [7]
Snack - green beans & apple [0]
Dinner - I ate my lunch and snack way too late to want dinner.

I switched hours with a coworker so I didn't get home until almost 8:30. I just wanted to go to sleep.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

58 Days

It's going to take a lot to get me to be meeting my activity goal the Polar has for me. I think it's set to 12,000 steps or some crazy shit. I didn't even make it halfway yesterday. I am sure I won't today, either.

Weigh in day. 154.5, so down 6 in 3 weeks. Meh. I know that is a healthy rate of loss but for as little as I am eating, I expected more. Except I know that is not how it works - from my own damn experience!

Workout A

squat - 5x5x65 lbs - I used my bar, made sure I at least made it to parallel, and really focused on form.
db shoulder press - 5x5x20 lbs
push up - 3x8 - On my knees. Alwyn Cosgrove would be disappointed.
SHELC - 3x8 - Always a good time thrusting my hips in the air.
standing calf raise - 3x8x65 lbs
db fly - 3x8x10 lbs
Shaun T's 5 Minute Abs - I am so uncoordinated!

I am undecided on whether I want to wear my HRM strap when I do my strength training. I don't believe HRMs are all that accurate for weight lifting. But I don't like how much the Polar underestimates how much I did. Sigh.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - cottage cheese, salad w/ homemade dressing [8]
Dinner - tilapia w/ sweet potato [7]

I'm really trying to not obsess over minute-to-minute and day-to-day shit. I need to take it week-by-week. I am already over all the tracking.

Saturday, March 4, 2017

59 Days

So, this Polar M400 is huge and a pain in the ass to sync. But I think that's my phone being a piece of crap. I didn't have a whole lot of activity logged yesterday because I didn't get the delivery until the afternoon, but one thing I did learn is that I am a great sleeper. Probably because I take 50 mg diphenhydramine and 10 mg melatonin every night.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch: Nothing. Too busy.

Dinner:
  • Denny's tilapia ranchers w/ broccoli & red skin potatoes [20] - I really wanted a fucking omelet with cheese and sausage. 

Friday, March 3, 2017

60 Days

Lots of overthinking today. I got on the scale (bad, I know) to see if I'm still gaining, but the numbers are finally moving in the right directions. I'm only down 5.5 pounds since I started almost 3 weeks ago. I have to stay off the damn scale. Or stick to weekly weigh ins, no sneaking peeks during the week. I discovered the iTrackBites app exports logs of everything, but you have to do it weekly. So starting next week, I will be exporting and saving shit because I'm weird like that.

My Polar M400 will be arriving today. I won't be using the heart rate monitor for my weight training. I'll use it strictly for cardio, which I hope to add next week. I am not 100% sure what I will be doing, or when. My goal is to get back to doing cardio six times a week, but for now, it will likely just be twice a week, and probably some of the shorter Turbo videos. Once DST starts, and it's still light out when I get home on my early days, my son and I will be going for walks. Maybe I will even find the mysterious fitness center my apartment complex has. I think it's by the pool. Damn, I have all this great shit right here and don't even use it. I've been here almost two years and have never been in the pool. Because I hate the sun.

And now that I will have something that is tracking my every move, I will have to find ways to get my steps in. I have a desk job, and I am usually at the office 10 hours a day. I figure I can take walks on my lunch breaks (because I certainly don't eat lunch) until it gets too hot to breathe outside. I'm not walking around the building for 20 minutes - it's a small building. I will have to stop taking the elevator. I haven't been taking the elevator because I'm lazy. I am, but I have been taking it because I have balance issues and trip going up the stairs at least once a week.

I will say though, I am feeling really fucking great. I no longer let housework slide because I just don't have the energy. A lot of my anxiety is gone. Or at least greatly reduced. I feel some of my old self coming back. My rosacea has cleared up quite a bit, either from eliminating sugar and a lot of carbs (like the Rosacea Diet) or from using tea tree oil on my face (I started doing this about the same week I started Weight Watchers). I'm still flushed, but the dry skin and bumps are mostly gone.

I just need to quit smoking. I hate myself for ever starting back up. And if I'd never quit exercising, I never would have started.

Workout D

Romanian deadlift - 5x5x80 lbs - I forgot to take the weight off from the other day's rack pulls so I have a 20 pound jump from last week. Oops.
glute ham raise on stability ball - 3x8 - Good mornings just working for me. I didn't feel anything but stretching in my hamstrings. This makes me feel like I'm working that shit.
sumo squat - 3x8x20 lbs
db skull crusher - 3x8x10 lbs

I think I have to increase all my weights next week (except the RDLs). Or move slower. I don't know. I feel like I can go up for some things, like shoulder presses and squats, but the little arm muscle stuff is tougher because even small increases in the load can be brutal. And I really like how I'm doing my squats now, with two 25-pound plates. But it doesn't work the quads as much as I could if I switched to back squats. I could use dumbbells, I guess but the plates are perfect because I know I've gotten low "enough" when they touch the floor. And of course, I will start having problems with grip if I use dumbbells, because I have weak ass hands. I know, I know - farmers walks to increase grip strength. Bah.

I have eight weeks left in this particular challenge and I'm already anxious to switch things up with the routine. As much as I love, love, love the four-day push-pull split, I think I need full body workouts, three days a week. Maybe I will make the switch for next week. That will give me an extra day to do cardio and get some use out of my heart rate monitor. In fact, I know I will make the switch next week because I already put together a three-day full body routine, with no repeated exercises for the week. I'm stoked!

Here is what the workout looks like. All weight workouts will be followed by Shaun T's 5 Minute Ab Workout.

Sunday - Workout A

squat5x5
db shoulder press5x5
push up3x8
SHELC3x8
standing calf raise3x8
db fly3x8

Monday - Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout (plus walks with my kid)

Tuesday - Workout B

db pull over3x8
front/side raise3x8
Romanian deadlift5x5
inverted row5x5
db hammer curl3x8
db row3x8

Wednesday - Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout (plus walks with my kid)

Thursday - Workout C

stability ball jackknife3x8
glute-ham raise3x8
db skullcrusher3x8
rack pull3x8
split squat5x5
renegade row (per side)5x5

Friday - Turbo Jam Cardio Party Remix or Fat Blaster + ChaLean Extreme Recharge

Saturday - REST!!!

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • cottage cheese & cooked carrots [7] - Both with hot sauce. Yum!
Dinner:
  • Um... 
Ha, I was wordy today because it was my day off and I didn't have to do a damn thing. Except my workout, which I got out of the way early. Oh, and I made my first attempt at deadlifting 1.5 times my body weight. Let's just say I couldn't even deadlift my bodyweight. I can deadlift just over half my bodyweight at this point :(

Thursday, March 2, 2017

61 Days

No time for shit chat today.

Workout C

inverted row - 5x5
db shoulder press - 5x5x10 lbs
db pullover 3x8x10 lbs
front/side raise - 3x8x5 lbs

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • yogurt [5]
Dinner:
  • eggs w/ English muffin& butter [12]
Lunch was very late and I drank lots of water today. 

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

62 Days

The dreaded Wednesday. I didn't pack a lunch. I did order the Polar activity monitor with the heart rate monitor chest strap. I guess I will have to start doing cardio.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:

  • turkey slices [5]
Dinner:
  • pizza [14]
Over my daily points today and I'm mad at myself for eating pizza. 

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

63 Days

I know I shouldn't have but I got on the scale and I'm up another half pound. Fucker.

I'm kicking around the idea of getting a Polar M400 activity monitor. My goddess, Melty, has one. She knows me so well. I asked if she thought I should buy it and she said something like, "You will obsess about it and it will piss you off." And then pretty much, "Yes, you should get it." It's a good price on Amazon and mother fucker, I deserve it. But will it motivate me or piss me off? Both, I am sure.

Workout B

squat - 5x5x50 lbs
lunge - 3x8x10 lbs
single leg SDL - 3x8x10 lbs
hammer curl - 3x8x10 lbs

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • yogurt & pepper slices [5]
Dinner: I didn't eat my lunch until after 6 PM so I wasn't hungry for dinner.

Monday, February 27, 2017

64 Days

As usual, I have an excuse for why I'm so messed up today. A last minute 5-hour road trip late yesterday will do that to a person. I didn't have time to prep my lunch for today. Hell, I barely had a chance to brush my hair before leaving for work this morning. So no lunch for me.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch: Nothing. Not even the vending machine. Go me!

Dinner:
  • chicken & baked potato w/ bacon & cheese [16]
Just under points for the day. But I didn't go to bed hungry.

I did prep my lunch for tomorrow. And dinner, since it's my late night and the boys are having homemade pizza.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

65 Days

Officially +1.5 from last week. Grrr. No bueno.

Workout A

rack pull - 5x5x80 lbs
db bench press - 5x5x25 lbs
bent over bb row - 3x8x45 lbs
db fly - 3x8x10 lbs

Next week I will increase the weights.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
  • banana [0]
Lunch:
  • turkey slices & yogurt [4]
Dinner:
  • chili [10]

Saturday, February 25, 2017

66 Days

Well, I've stuck with this bullshit for two weeks and I'm cranky from not eating enough and not knowing how to fix it. I mean, yeah, eat more, obviously, but it's hard to plan and no one else in my house wants to eat what I want to so fuck me. I still look forward to my workouts though. And I'm thinking ahead to what I'm going to do with the 35 weeks remaining in 2017 after this little experiment is over. Eventually, I want to get into doing Olympic lifts, even though I won't have Oly weights.

I'm irrationally discouraged with the weight loss this week. As in the none! I know I have to be patient. And eat more. And be patient. That's the worst part. I was reading back through my blog and there were long stretches where I only averaged a pound or less a week. That's still enough time to get to my goal weight by the end of the year but I'm tired of being fat. I'll never be small - even at my lowest and fittest a few years ago, I still looked like a linebacker.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • banana & cheese [4] - At 6 PM.
Dinner:
  • shrimp w/ pasta & butter [15]
I was fucking starving tonight. Still had lots of points to spare this week.

Friday, February 24, 2017

67 Days

I hopped on the scale a day early. Up a pound. Wretched thing!

I forgot to take "before" pictures when I started last week, so I took them today. No, I am not sharing until I see some good progress.

Workout D

Romanian deadlift - 5x5x60 lbs
good morning - 3x8x50 lbs - I have my big barbell back so I didn't have to worry about getting the bar over my head. I started out with 60 lbs but I didn't feel comfortable with that once I got the bar on.
sumo squat - 3x8x20 lbs (2 10 lbs dumbbells)
db skullcrusher - 3x8x10 lbs

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10]
Lunch: Nothing. 

Dinner:
  • salad w/ avocado & homemade Italian dressing [10]
Snack:
  • beef jerky [5]
  • banana [0]
  • English muffin w/ avocado [8]
Made it over 30 today!

Thursday, February 23, 2017

68 Days

Holy crap, no time for details. Work has been insane.

Workout C

inverted row - 5x5
shoulder press - 5x5x10 lbs
db pull over - 3x8x10 lbs
front/lat raise - 3x8x5 lbs

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • banana [0]
Dinner:
  • nothing
Snack:
  • avocado & turkey slices [12] - This was a LATE snack, like 7:30 PM while I was finishing up at work. Which is why I ate nothing for dinner. Unless this was dinner?

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

69 Days

Another day, and I haven't gone off the rails. Last night I struggled a bit. I was hungry after my oatmeal and had points to spare, but didn't feel like editing my blog so I didn't have anything else to eat. I wasn't necessarily hungry - oatmeal is damn filling - but I wanted something. But lazy.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10]
Lunch:
  • yogurt [3]
Dinner:
  • chicken wings (baked) & sweet potato [15]
Hey, I actually got 30 points today!

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

70 Days

Today being my late day, I thought I would sleep in a bit, as usual. Nope. My body got up before I am normally up on an early day.

Workout B

squat - 5x5x50 lbs - I didn't use my bar because I really like using the 25 lbs plates. It helps with my form and depth.
lunge - 3x8x10 lbs, each side
single leg SDL - 3x8x10 lbs, each side
hammer curl - 3x8x10 lbs

In general, I really like this workout because I can focus on form and keep it challenging. I will probably maintain these weights for a couple weeks and really focus on my movements and balance. I love this workout.

 Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch:
  • hard boiled eggs [4]
  • green pepper slices [0]
Dinner:
  • oatmeal w/ peanut butter and banana [10]
Snacks:
  • yogurt & clementines [3]
Still under for the day. Obviously, I need to plan better.

Monday, February 20, 2017

71 Days

I hate Mondays. Not as much as Wednesdays, but close.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • I packed yogurt, hard boiled eggs, and green peppers but didn't really get hungry until it was almost time to go home, so I didn't bother.
Dinner:
  • chicken breast & salad [8]
Not a stellar food day.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

72 Days

I think I am much better prepared for this coming week than I was last week. I searched for some recipes and planned out my dinners. I bought some more of the Oikos Triple Zero yogurt. I made hard boiled eggs. I have bananas and vegetables. I plan on eating more of my points. I had 78 points I could have eaten last week. I'm going to aim for 34 points a day - that is my 30 dailies and 1/7 of my weeklies. Activity points for emergencies.

I cannot get over how fucking amazing I feel, after just one week. I may have said that yesterday or the day before but today it really hit me, when I didn't dread having to go to the grocery store, when I didn't dread knowing I had a workout pending.

Workout A

rack pulls - 5x5x80 lbs
db bench press - 5x5x 25 lbs
bent over bb row - 3x8x45 lbs
db fly - 3x8x10 lbs
core:
  • plank 1x30 sec
  • side plank w/ row - 1x15, each side
  • Swiss ball mountain climber - 1x10, each side
box jump - 1x5

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
  • banana [0]
Lunch:
  • 5 Hour Energy Protein Drink [1] - I don't really like 5 Hour energy drinks but I had to try this. It has 21 g of protein. It definitely won't become a "thing" because they are $3.50 apiece. Eff that. Plus, it was fucking nasty. I only drank half of it. I will save the other half for when I have a protein emergency.
  • hard boiled eggs [4]
Dinner:
  • omelet w/ onions, peppers, cheese & sausage [17]
Snack:
  • light multi-grain English muffin w/ butter & hot sauce [7] - This stupid thing just made me hungrier.
I think I did better today - 35 points eaten. I need more vegetables. I need to get some frozen vegetables (or hell, even canned) and just much on them. Like green beans. Yum. I can eat those straight from the can, no problemo!

Saturday, February 18, 2017

73 Days

I've made it through a whole week of tracking and doing my scheduled workouts. Go me! I'm down 5 pounds but I know it's only because I've been eating very little. I need to work on that. I've started tracking how many points I don't eat.

Food

Breakfast:

  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch:
  • Cobb salad [13]
Dinner:
  • Nothing. Don't ask.

Friday, February 17, 2017

74 Days

It's my day off from work, but not my workouts!

Workout D

Romanian deadlift - 5x5x60 lbs
good morning - 3x8x30 lbs
sumo squat - 3x8x20 lbs (2 10 lbs dumbbells)
db skullcrusher - 3x8x10 lbs

Let's talk about good mornings for a minute. They are nothing like they sound. A good morning would be lying on the couch with my Kindle and endless coffee. Basically, you put a bar on your back and hinge forward at the hips. As opposed to hinging backwards - I don't recommend that at all. It's a back/hamstring exercise and I have really shitty range of motion for ham exercises. So anyway. I found the clamps for my squatting bar, and was going to use that for my good mornings but the damn bar is all rusted from sitting unused in my garage for years and I couldn't get the plates on. I will be sanding it down tomorrow. So I had to use my E-Z curl bar, which is hella uncomfortable because it has a big bump right in the middle, right where it rests against your back/base of the neck. And I had to use little enough weight that I could get it over my head and into position. So suckage all around for good mornings today. Hopefully next Friday will be better. I know I can GM more than 30 freaking pounds.

But let me tell you how awesome sumo squats and skullcrushers are! My favorites of the workout, maybe even in the whole program. I used two 10 lbs dumbbells for the crushers (unlike just one 10 lb dumbbell for my pullovers the other day) and my triceps hate me. It's ok. And sumo squats!! I can get good depth and it hits the parts of the quads that the other leg exercises don't really target. I love them. At rest, my legs feel like they could run marathons, there's so much something coursing through my muscles. In motion, I just want to sit back down.

It's amazing, though, how much better I feel already. I have a lot more energy than I did a week ago. Not go out for walks or runs energy, but enough energy to clean my house without dreading it and wishing I could just go back to the couch. Such a huge change! I can't believe it. I feel less anxious, there is pep in my step. I gotta keep this shit up!

Food

Breakfast
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [7]
Lunch:
  • yogurt [3]
Dinner:
  • chef said [17]
27 of 30. So yeah, it's been a lame week in terms of food but like I said on the first day, this was a spur of the moment decision and I didn't have time to prep. The fact that I didn't hit the vending machine once at work is an accomplishment. I think next week will be better, and I will eat more. I'm going to spend tomorrow evening going through all the WW recipes I can find, picking out stuff I would like and that I think the boys would like. Well frankly, I don't care if they like it. One healthy meal a day won't freaking kill them.


Thursday, February 16, 2017

75 Days

Another day of agony with the sore muscles. I was determined to get my workout in before work though. 

Workout C

inverted row - 5x5
db pullover - 3x8x10 lbs
db shoulder press - 5x5x10 lbs
front/lat raise - 2x8x10 lbs each
core:
  • plank - 1x30 sec
  • side plank w/ cable (band) row - 1x15, each side
  • Swiss ball mountain climber - 1x10, each side 
db snatch - 1x5x10 lbs, each arm

Ok, so I did alternating sets with my 5x5s and my 3x8s. Pullovers paired with front & lat raises are no fucking joke!!! OMG.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch:
  • salad w/ avocado & homemade Italian dressing [6]
Dinner:
  • leftover stuffed pepper casserole [8]
Snacks:
  • Oikos Triple Zero yogurt [3] - This shit is filling as fuck. One container (5.3 oz) is 3 points and I couldn't eat lunch for a long while after I ate it.
  • clementines [0]
Only used 23 of my 30...but I honestly wasn't hungry.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

76 Days

Wednesdays are so rough for me. Most people hate Mondays. I hate Wednesdays. I work late on Tuesday, have to be to work early on Wednesday. I am always so tired. And today I am fucking sore as hell. I keep trying to move and stretch but these damn DOMS are something. And I have a crack in my nail, and no nail glue.

Thankfully, I have no workout planned for today.

Food

Breakfast:
  • coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12] - I devised a method for tolerating my precious. Still, it's a lot of sugar. But damn, only 300 calories. I don't get hungry when I have my coffee. 
Lunch: Nada. I still had my coffee,

Dinner:
  • stuffed pepper casserole [8]
Snack:
  • Clementine [0]
I only used 20 of my daily points. Fail.