Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Day 67 - Blah!

I'm still exhausted but I think my head is on a little straighter today.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken & sweet potatoes - I didn't measure or track this.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Day 66 - No Workout

I had a really bad night. I have so much...shit...going on that I couldn't sleep, I was depressed, and I ate a god damn candy bar. I have no idea how much of it I ate. It was a king size but not a whole king size - maybe 2/3? At any rate, I didn't log it in my apps. So I slept like shit, didn't feel like working out this morning, and just wanted the work day to be over so I could go the fuck to sleep.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - pasta salad, chicken wrap, chocolate cake - I didn't log this. No fucks given.

Monday, June 5, 2017

Day 65 - More Biking

So, I did some more biking this morning. My heart rate doesn't really get up on the recumbent bike but I really didn't feel like doing anything else.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt, chicken & green beans [7]
Dinner - pizza [14]

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Day 64 - Biking

I'm not quite ready to go back to lifting. My tattoo still has some sore, scabby spots and I want to wait until it's completely healed before I start lying on my bench and doing chest exercises. So I will be using my new (to me) recumbent exercise bike. That thing is no joke. I made it 5 minutes before I had to take a break. And by break, I mean stop for the day.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - hard boiled eggs [6]
Dinner - bread [4] - Yes, I had bread for dinner. I did not prep well for this week.
Snack - vegetables w/ light Asian dressing [3]

Oh and the weigh in wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I'm only up 1 pound from my low. I will take it.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

Days 50 - 63 - Vacation & Fuckery

So things sort of fell apart once I got my tattoo. It really fucking hurt and I didn't really feel like doing much. Even after the first week, it still hurt and I couldn't wear a bra, so I didn't workout. I didn't track my food and I probably made some questionable choices. But I didn't binge and I didn't go crazy, and I'm ready to get back to it tomorrow. I am dreading the weigh in to see the damage but whatever. Back on the wagon!

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Days 44 - 49 - Fitness Break

I have to take a break from my workouts. I am so fucking exhausted. I'm hoping to recharge over vacation next week and come back strong. I will still be logging my food and posting it here but since I will only be posting what I eat, I'm only going to post on Saturdays for the next two weeks. I swear, I'm not going to disappear. Melty will kill me if I don't kill me first!

Monday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12] - I didn't drink it all so I have no idea how many points I actually consumed. When in doubt, overestimate.
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - salad w/ avocado & light vidalia onion dressing [12]

Tuesday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - yogurt [3]
Dinner - meatballs & salad w/ light Asian dressing [18]

I also had some tempura chicken and rice but didn't log it. I didn't eat tons. Enough to make me feel guilty, though.

Wednesday

Breakfast - coffee w/Splenda and creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - steak & sweet potato [12]
Snack - En

Thursday

Breakfast - coffee w/Splenda and creamer
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - meatballs [15]
Snack - English muffin w/ butter [8]

Friday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer
Lunch - grilled chicken pico guacamole sandwich & fries (just a few) from McDonald's
Dinner - half a salad w/ lite dressing & pepperoni
Snack - trail mix - not tons but probably more than I should have had

I didn't log any of this.

Saturday

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - chicken salad on rye bread
Snack - bagel w/ butter

I didn't log this, either.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Day 43 - NROL - Blah Blah

I just cannot get my shit together. I'm distracted because work is so busy, and I will be on vacation after this coming week. At first, I thought I would have plenty of time to work out properly while on vacation, then I decided to get a tattoo on my chest the first day, so I won't be lifting that week. I can still do Turbo Jam, so I will get caught up on the Fat Blasters I've missed. Plus, my boss is giving me a recumbent exercise bike - I will be picking that up Saturday. I hope to get lots of use out of that on my vacation, too. Mainly, I wanted it for my son. I told him he has no choice - he is getting some damn exercise.

But anyway...I think the only reason I'm not falling completely off the wagon is because I have a list of all the workouts I want to do. I feel like if I just follow the list, I will be okay. Rather than scheduling the NROL workouts for specific days and having target end dates for completing each one, I just check off the workouts as I go. It's a big list but I feel a lot less pressure and don't hate myself nearly as much when I don't workout.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6]
Lunch - string cheese & apple [6]
Dinner - egg & turkey burger on light English muffin [9]

I'm not eating enough. That's why I can't get my shit together. But I can't focus enough to plan and prep. I feel like I'm drowning in responsibility and resentment.