Sunday, May 30, 2010

NROL4W - Stage 2 - Sunday - Turbo Jam Cardio Party 3

I burned a whopping 446 calories. I think that VO2 change really shows up in longer workouts. And CP3 is always more intense than most things I do, which is why I love it.

Food was out of control today. OUT. OF. CONTROL. I got mad at my husband for eating the last ice cream cone, after I'd already eaten 3 of them. He didn't really do me any favors. I just found something else horrible to eat. I hate myself. I'm reading a new book about binge eating, while I binge. Double disgust. Why is it so hard? I have tried everything to distract me from eating. I know I eat well and eat enough when I am not binging. I don't know what the problem is. I don't understand why I can't slay this beast.

Tomorrow's workout - Stage 2B

3 comments:

Jess said...

Gosh I am SO there with you. I did so well, for several weeks in fact, and the last few weeks have been complete and utter shit. I do the same thing you do...I'll watch a health show or read a health book/magazine while I'm eating a bunch of complete and utter junk. It's totally frustrating and demoralizing. I feel just as helpless (probably more so) than you do. So though it's not much help, I feel your pain...

And the shitty thing right now is that I was hoping by planning this vacation and meeting you & Sara that it would help me get my act together, but nope;. the binge monster has taken control again. :( So lucky you...you get to meet me at my "finest". :o|

Becky said...

I've gained about 10 pounds since Christmas.

Jess said...

Well...I think I've gained about 5 lbs. since then but here I am back to what I started out at when we "met" on BBC a few years ago.

I keep telling myself to just hang in there until after I graduate in a year since that is what my biggest issue is (lack of time). I seriously hope that is what the issue is because I'm scared if that's not it...

And I heart you anyway...extra ten pounds or not. ;)