I know I said I was going to do my last 3A workout, but I changed my mind. I was in such a bad mood when I woke up that I would have thrown my dumbbells out the window if I had to touch them. So I took it out on the house and cleaned the whole damn thing.
My good friend and motivator brought up some good points about yesterdays blog. I am eating too much for weight loss. I'm eating fine for maintenance (my own conclusion) but too much to lose. She asked why I don't go back to counting points for a while. It's a good strategy, but she also knows it makes me crazy. When I have to measure and count every little thing I eat, I feel like food rules my days. I see the numbers at the end of the day and think, "Oh my God, I'm starving" and have already eaten to my numerical limit or "I'm not hungry but I have to eat enough." It's no win that way. I stress and obsess and I tend to eat more processed foods when I'm counting, just because I "can" eat them.
But with Simply Filling and the Filling Foods list, I eat more intuitively. I eat when I'm hungry. Sometimes, yes, I do over eat and yes, I do eat when I'm not hungry. In terms of quality, I think SFT is the best approach for me. Binges aside (because those happen regardless of my eating plan), this is how I want to eat for the rest of my life. It doesn't stress me out, it's uncomplicated, and it fits the goals I have for what kind of foods I want to eat.
I was logging all of my food in Sparkpeople for May and June and I gained 10+ pounds. I didn't log the binges, of course but I did log everything else. It drove me nuts. There was a period of time, maybe early 2009, where I was just eating intuitively and I did very well. I was happy and I was losing weight. Slowly, but I was content. I want that back. So...I need to decide whether losing weight is worth sacrificing my sanity. I know I can still work on eating less. As I've said before, I do portion out my grains, starches, and fats, so I really do think, at this point, it is simply a matter of eating when I'm not hungry, and/or confusing "full" and "satisfied" when I eat. And I need to cut myself some slack. I'm coming off a six-month period of horrible eating. I should consider the last two weeks a freaking victory. I didn't binge. I didn't even eat my usual junk foods. I have not given things enough time to really work. I know that if I can just not binge, I can do this.
eggs w/ avocado, light English muffin w/ sugar free jelly [1 pt]
hard boiled eggs w/ red pepper slices, cucumber, a few bites of my son's apple
quinoa bean salad w/ honey mustard dressing - This was really good for throwing something together in a rush.
yogurt w/ cereal
80 ounces of water and two coffees. 34 weekly points remaining. Even though it took me 4 hours to clean the entire house, I'm not taking any activity points for it.
Tomorrow's workout - Stage 3A. For sure.