Monday, January 26, 2009

NROL - Week 26 - Monday

It's break week, baby!!! No formal exercise as I gear up for my next routine. And in case it got lost in my last post, I'm starting ChaLean Extreme next Monday, and I'm very excited! There are two rest days built into it, but I'm only taking one of them. I'll throw in some cardio on the other rest day. It will most likely be one of the other Turbo Jam videos, either a Cardio Party or Fat Blaster. I'm not sure yet. I think I'll start with Fat Blaster for four weeks, then do something else. Or, I can just alternate all three Cardio Party videos and Fat Blaster. I won't get the moves down easily though, so it will probably be best for me to just do the same one for a month then switch.

I spent two hours cleaning the house today. I managed to do the whole house in just two days, so I'm happy for that. I hate a dusty house. I can't concentrate very well. Maybe I'll be able to meditate better without the cobwebs.

I skimmed the BFFM ebook again last night. I can't decide if I want to cut the carbs more or increase them. I think my ranges have been fine, but my choice of carbs can be better. I worry about another big binge if I get too obsessive about eating perfectly. I like being able to eat "bad" foods here and there, because six months ago, I never would have thought I'd be able to handle it. Sometimes, people (unintentionally, I'm sure) make me feel guilty for my choices. I don't know how to deal with that. I mean, I know I should just let it roll off my shoulders but it still bothers me. I have come a long way since I started dealing with the binge eating and I'm accepting of my circumstances. I'm perfectly content to do this slowly, as long as I do it, you know?

There was a discussion on one of my message board hangouts about losing weight, how we know what we're supposed to do, but there are all these obstacles that are harder to overcome for some people than others. One woman who had struggled commented that she had a skinny friend, and one day she showed up at her friend's house to find her friend working out. And it hit her that fit, thin people have to work at it, too, to stay that way. So she was able to recommit to getting healthy and losing weight. Her story has been on my mind all weekend and it really dawned on me that what I am doing (and have been doing for the last two years), is something I should be doing for the rest of my life. And if I'm going to eat this way and exercise this way for the rest of my life, I need to do it MY WAY. My way is working better than anything I've done in the past. My binges are less frequent, I am losing weight (slowly, but that's okay), and I'm pretty consistent about exercise. Six months ago, I was skeptical that I'd ever be normal. Now, I think I'm well on that road. I'm sure I'll still have doubts but today, I have no regrets about my choices.

7:15 AM - apple & cottage cheese

10:15 AM - chicken breast & sweet potato

10:45 AM - coffee w/ half-and-half & Splenda; still working on cutting back this last little bit

1:45 PM - carrots, pumpkin granola bar, mozzarella string cheese; I had to just grab something I could take with me in the car because I was running late

5:15 PM - carrots, green beans w/ Caesar vinaigrette dressing, roasted chicken

7:40 PM - pumpkin granola bar & mozzarella string cheese, these granola bars are growing on me, thankfully - I'd hate for them to go to waste

Calories - 1399
Carbs - 125 (23 fiber)
Protein - 117
Fat - 48
C/P/F Ratio - 35.7/33.4/30.9


Jess said...

You are doing GREAT! You have definitely came a LONG way in six months. It'll probably take me two + years to get in the right mindset but I'm in this for the long haul this time. It is a lifestyle change, not a diet, right? :) Keep on plugging along!

Hayley said...

I'm really proud of you Becky and I think you're exactly right - this is something you're going to do for LIFE and it's working, maintainable and you get to eat treats here and there! It's all about moderation not deprivation. Like Jess said - you're doing so great!! Sorry I haven't been able to post as frequently - I still try to keep up with the reading!