It's been a bad week, to say the least. I had 4 days of bad eating, two of them really bad. Yesterday, I didn't even bother to work out. In fact, I lounged around on the couch reading and snacking most of the day. And trust me, I felt like crap, physically (exhaustion, nausea, heartburn - no, I am not pregnant) and mentally (foggy brain, distracted, also a little bit of beating myself up). My muscles ached from the new lifting routine last week, and I know the best thing I could have done for myself was get up off my ass and move but I was in definite "Screw It!!" mode. I did start off the days with the best of intentions, but somehow I fell apart. It was fruit making me hungry. It was the *cough*special*cough* cookies giving me the munchies. It was knowing that I'd be eating liberally today. It all put me in a crappy, weak frame of mind. I don't know specifically what triggered this. I have junk in the house all the time and NEVER care about it. Pretty much the only thing I didn't eat is the bag of M&Ms I bought in November that I can't eat without a plan.
And I don't know why, but I have no doubts that tomorrow I will be back to 100%. These last four days have been like someone else's life that I'm giving back when I sleep tonight.
Needless to say, I did not get on the scale. It's the first time in a long, long time that I've chickened out. I did challenge myself last week, before the binge started, that I was going to not weigh until the morning I leave for New York in September, but I think I knew, deep down, that I wouldn't like what I saw this week. So yeah, I'm throwing down this challenge as a way to avoid the issue. There really isn't an excuse.
Another thing that has me "off" this week - so little cardio. I love my weight training but I really think, just for my own satisfaction, I need to Turbo after. I have one Turbo Jam DVD (Fat Blaster) that is cardio intervals. Not HIIT, which I still need to think on, in terms of putting together a program and figuring out which mp3 to use. I don't have machines and can't go out to do it, so it's got to be bodyweight exercises for HIIT. But in the meantime, I really need more cardio. Turbo specifically. I love how Turbo makes me feel. And I got my first Turbo Kick volume from the Fan series. It has 2 rounds (each approximately 50 minutes long) of the moves TK instructors get. It's not as well put together as Turbo Jam videos, but it's really neat to see how instructors are taught. I may do one of the rounds this week. I don't know. I wish I could get another TV and DVD player to put in my exersice "room" with all my other equipment. My living room is one large, open area - half of it contains living room stuff, the other half has my equipment, our freezer, the gun cabinet. Not a lot of room for cardio in there, but if we tore out the bar (that we only use to keep crap behind), I could make a really great cardio area. But then I wouldn't have anywhere for my Dyson, the fishing poles/tackle boxes, and meat processor unit we have. I hate living in a tiny house.
My son's 5th birthday is tomorrow. We went out for breakfast (it was supposed to be lunch, but they pushed back the time they start serving lunch again!!), then went to see Transformers. After that, we came home and had the ice cream cake I made. I bought a white cake mix and baked 2 8" round cakes. I put red food coloring in one and blue in the other. The cake represented Optimus Prime. I made vanilla ice cream with yellow food coloring and chocolate chips, representing Bumble Bee. The frosting was vanilla pudding/Cool Whip with green food coloring to represent Acid Storm. It was a big hit with my guys.
And I don't know why, but I have no doubts that tomorrow I will be back to 100%. These last four days have been like someone else's life that I'm giving back when I sleep tonight.
Needless to say, I did not get on the scale. It's the first time in a long, long time that I've chickened out. I did challenge myself last week, before the binge started, that I was going to not weigh until the morning I leave for New York in September, but I think I knew, deep down, that I wouldn't like what I saw this week. So yeah, I'm throwing down this challenge as a way to avoid the issue. There really isn't an excuse.
Another thing that has me "off" this week - so little cardio. I love my weight training but I really think, just for my own satisfaction, I need to Turbo after. I have one Turbo Jam DVD (Fat Blaster) that is cardio intervals. Not HIIT, which I still need to think on, in terms of putting together a program and figuring out which mp3 to use. I don't have machines and can't go out to do it, so it's got to be bodyweight exercises for HIIT. But in the meantime, I really need more cardio. Turbo specifically. I love how Turbo makes me feel. And I got my first Turbo Kick volume from the Fan series. It has 2 rounds (each approximately 50 minutes long) of the moves TK instructors get. It's not as well put together as Turbo Jam videos, but it's really neat to see how instructors are taught. I may do one of the rounds this week. I don't know. I wish I could get another TV and DVD player to put in my exersice "room" with all my other equipment. My living room is one large, open area - half of it contains living room stuff, the other half has my equipment, our freezer, the gun cabinet. Not a lot of room for cardio in there, but if we tore out the bar (that we only use to keep crap behind), I could make a really great cardio area. But then I wouldn't have anywhere for my Dyson, the fishing poles/tackle boxes, and meat processor unit we have. I hate living in a tiny house.
My son's 5th birthday is tomorrow. We went out for breakfast (it was supposed to be lunch, but they pushed back the time they start serving lunch again!!), then went to see Transformers. After that, we came home and had the ice cream cake I made. I bought a white cake mix and baked 2 8" round cakes. I put red food coloring in one and blue in the other. The cake represented Optimus Prime. I made vanilla ice cream with yellow food coloring and chocolate chips, representing Bumble Bee. The frosting was vanilla pudding/Cool Whip with green food coloring to represent Acid Storm. It was a big hit with my guys.
2 comments:
I have those days too Becky...sometimes I think people like us really need a break - a big one - from everything. My problem is that I feel guilty if I just lie around doing nothing. I think I start eating as a way of distracting myself from feeling guilty.Then I feel worse after I've eaten...then eat more, etc. Your body probably needed a break from everything - mentally and physically and perhaps subconsciously you didn't want to allow yourself to do so? This is just a stab in the dark! :)
That makes a lot of sense. I know I was pretty stressed about something that I'm no longer stressed about, so hopefully that was the real problem. I have NO desire to eat any junk.
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