Friday, June 5, 2009

Jillian Kicks My Butt - Week 5 - Friday

30 Day Shred Level 2 and No More Trouble Zones - 81 minutes and 338 calories. My arms, especially the triceps, were a tad sore today from yesterdays' chin ups. My sunburn is much better and I was worried I'd have trouble with the mat work, but it went well.

I have two quick things to mention here about yesterday. First, I spent some time yesterday attempting to organize my loose recipe papers - all the stuff I photocopied from Paula Deen's books, magazine inserts, cut outs from papers, index cards I'd jotted recipes on. I didn't get anywhere in terms of organization but I amazed myself as I looked through the recipes and did not once say, "Oh, I'll never be able to have that." On the contrary, I said, "I can make this and enjoy it without going nuts." That's huge! I was not intimidated by a single recipe, in terms of carbs or fat or calories. I'm not a brilliant cook but I can hold my own fairly well and I love to collect recipes. And now I think I'm ready to start making some of the ones I've been saving up, even if it calls for Paula's pound of butter.

Second, my sunburn hurt so much yesterday that I screamed and cried my way out of my shirt and bra, then realized I could have just pushed it all down over my hips to take them off. But anyway, I put on a tube top for comfort. My husband LOVED it. He's always made a point, even at my heaviest, to tell me the things he likes about my body, and has never, ever said anything negative about my weight. He may make cracks about the exercise equipment everywhere or a dvd I'm watching "Honey, it doesn't work like that, you have to get up and do the moves." But I know it's all in jest. So he commented, quite excitedly, about my tube top and skimpy butt-cheek showing boxers. And he said, "I think you look great. You don't have to lose any more weight for me." So that made me feel really good, but I immediately made it clear: "I'm not doing this for you." Of course he joked that I have a boyfriend on the side. And it absolutely was a joke, and I knew that, but I said, "I did this for me, and I'm going to do more, for me."

So, don't do it for anyone but yourself. Don't feel guilty for taking the time to exercise or for spending a little bit of money on something fitness related or some healthier food choices. I tried to schedule my exercise when my son was least likey to need/bug me, and even getting up at 5 AM hasn't really given me the time to work out alone. He gets up anyway and starts yapping at me, but I tell him to take a hike. If he doesn't like it, he can go back to bed. I could wait until he goes to school for the day, but then most of my day is wasted. I spend all morning thinking about the exercise I have to do, then by the time I get home, get it done, and get showered, it's about time to go get him. So I take that time in the morning, when he should be sleeping but isn't through no fault but his own. Tuesday is his last day of school, and I intend to keep the current schedule. After I workout, I plan to get him outside for a couple hours, on his bike or his scooter, until the sun gets up too much. I do feel guilty that I can't have him outside all day playing but my skin cannot handle it. Plus, I really hate this freaking heat. I live in the worst possible location. I hate the heat, the sun and the sand.

5:20 AM - Total cereal w/ skim milk

7:50 AM - apple & cottage cheese

11:00 AM - turkey bacon, homemade bagel w/ light cream cheese, scrambled eggs w/ onion, green pepper & salsa

2:35 PM - salad w/ sliced turkey, green pepper, onion, tomato, lettuce & red pepper Italian dressing

5:50 PM - roasted chicken breast w/ light barbecue sauce, mixed vegetables, homemade vanilla ice cream

Two cups of coffee, one cup of tea and 120 ounces of water.

Calories - 1610
Carbs - 182 (22 fiber)
Protein - 125
Fat - 40
C/P/F Ratio - 46/31.5/22.5

1 comment:

Jess said...

You are such an inspiration! are in such a good place right now! Keep up the great work! :D