Sunday, March 29, 2009

ChaLean Extreme - Week 7 - Sunday

Weigh in day. I'd been nervous about this all week. I feel bloated. 137.5, down a pound. I will take it!!! Two more pounds and I will be in the healthy weight range. I'm so stoked!

Something that's been in my mind a lot this week is something Chalene says in her workouts - write down your goal. That, along with a question asked in one of my Babycenter groups (what worries you more - our weight or the economy?) has made me think about my body's future. I answered the Babycenter question with "economy" because I'd rather be fat than homeless. I'm pretty sure being homeless isn't going to happen, but I have to get a job. My husband is pretty safe with his job but he doesn't get as many hours as he used to (still full time though) and some of the perks of his job aren't as fruitful. So it would help out I got a job. I'd love to work, but my husband's schedule is really weird and the only thing I could really commit to is a third shift job (scarce here, but there are places). Then what would happen to my exercise? Suppose I get home from work at 6:30 AM - I could probably squeeze in a workout then - that is my normal time. But I'm usually refreshed from a night of sleep. I could do it after I take my son to school - around 8:45 AM, by the time I get home and prepped. Allow an hour for a quick workout, cool down, and shower. Give me 15 minutes to eat,and that brings us to 10 AM. If I fall asleep immediately, that gives me 3 hours 45 minutes before I have to get up pick my son up. I could always nap after I pick him up, but when would I do housework, prepare dinner, and feed my Internet addiction. We're talking about some serious life changes if I get a job. I'm worried that I'd stop exercising. I'm terrified of falling out of this habit. I've been so good about it for over 2 years. I can't let myself quit. So I have to think of the best way for me and my family to make this transition. I know it can be done because people do it all time.

But what about my goal for my body? I know I got off track there, but it's kind of relevant because it's a potential obstacle. Why do I want to lose weight and get in shape? It's not vanity. Health, obviously is a big one but the biggest is I want to know what my body can do. I want to know how much I can lift, then push myself to lift more. I want to be able to do some of the intense routines that are now just a fantasy (90x, Spartan 300s, for starters). I have no desire to complete in fitness or body building competitions. Someday, maybe, powerlifting. But for now, I just want to make my body very strong and healthy.

Okay, I lied a bit. I also want to look good in a Hooters uniform.

I got 20 minutes of Wii Fit this morning. My balance and rhythm were way off.

7:45 AM - Cheerios w/ 2% milk, banana

8:30 AM - coffee w/ half-and-half & Splenda

11:25 AM - turkey bacon, scrambled eggs w/ onion, green pepper & salsa; I was going to have toast, too, but decided not to, so I could save some carbs for dinner.

2:20 PM - tuna salad (w/ lettuce, black olives, pickles, green pepper, onion, light balsamic dressing)

6:25 PM - pasta w/ sauce & turkey meatballs; I was going to have chicken but decided I could have this with the rest of my family. I divided out my portion of everything beforehand and was quite satisfied. It made me think of the old days, when I'd pile my plate high with pasta. Two or three times.

6:45 PM - bite of Pop Tart; I didn't log this in my tracker - just tested out a new flavor. It was good.

8:40 PM - apple w/ peanut butter; I really wanted a Fiber One bar.

Calories - 1729
Carbs - 190 (25 fiber)
Protein - 95
Fat - 67
C/P/F Ratio - 43.6/21.8/34.6


Jess said...

You made me LOL with the Hooters outfit comment!

Check your e-mail. I've got some ideas about jobs for you...

Hayley said...

Way to go on the weightloss Becky!! You are doing so're seriously very inspiring to me because it helps me believe that I can also get over the bingeing stuff. :) I also laughed about the Hooters uniform!!

I think having a goal is SO important, and I never used to think so myself. I think sometimes it just takes a little work figuring out exactly WHY we want to lose weight. And each time you come up with an answer, just keep asking why? For example - to look good. Why do you want to look good? Because I'll feel better about myself? Why? Just until you get to the truly REAL reason...even if it's as simple as just loving yourself more or whatever. Oh who knows...maybe I'm just being too philosophical this morning..LOL.

Becky said...

Thanks, ladies!

Hayley - that's a great idea! I like to get to the root of things so I will probably dig deeper.