Sunday, April 12, 2009

ChaLean Extreme - Week 9 - Sunday

After I blogged last night, I ended up eating again. Sebastian left carrots for the Easter Bunny and someone had to get rid of them. I wish he'd left donuts.

Or not. I weighed in today at 137, up one pound from last week. I'm disappointed but not surprised. There are tons of reasons why I gained that pound (which isn't fat, I'm positive) - I've been sick, hormones, too many processed foods. Whatever. Looking back at my diet for the last week, it hasn't been horrible. Sunday was excessive but still not terrible. I didn't work out as hard as I could have. It's frustrating nonetheless.

I'm not measuring or tracking today. I am worried I'll end up grazing all day. Between the disappointing weigh in, cooking foods I normally wouldn't, and just hanging out all day, I'm really edgy about what I eat. The Easter candy is making me insane, and that's crazy because I've had M&Ms and Girl Scout Cookies & all sorts of goodies in this house for months without a problem. But as soon as I saw my son's Easter basket, my mind went crazy!!! Just like with the Valentine's Day candy! Why is that???

At one point, I got so restless, I took a walk. I needed to do something or go crazy. I walked 4 miles in 1:02:36 - no speed record, for sure, but it was good to get out.

  • a few small homemade cookies that my friend made last weekend and sent home with us
  • eggs, ham & crescent rolls
  • coffee w/ half-and-half & Splenda (and Baileys - at 9 in the freaking morning!!!)
  • Wheat Things Fiber Select w/ homemade crab dip
  • mandarin oranges
  • hard boiled eggs, carrots
  • peanut butter & Nutella sandwich
  • shrimp, tilapia, vegetable risotto, mashed potatoes, stuffing, biscuit & gravy
  • egg salad sandwich
  • a few M&Ms (not the ones from my freezer - the ones in my son's basket)
It sure looks like a ton of food. It feels like a ton of food.  I overate today. I'm not sure if I'm mad at myself or not. I know days like this are going to happen. I'll live. I'm not tempted to binge. Well, I am, but I won't! I've worked too hard to let that happen.


2 comments:

Hayley said...

You are such an inspiration Becky and I'm not even saying that to be patronizing or anything. The fact that you did not let this turn into a binge is such an accomplishment. I need to think of you more often...you give me hope.

Jess said...

You did great, girl! Unfortunately, there are going to be holidays and I think as long as we don't let it turn into a several day long binge, that it's okay to indulge a little on those days.

If it makes you feel better, the effing Easter candy is driving me crazy too! I didn't really put much in my basket and didn't eat much at all yesterday but I keeping sneaking by Collin's today and snagging a few pieces here and a few pieces there. Argh!

I worked out today though so there's my positive thing for the day! :)