NROL - Week 13 - Friday

Today was Fat Loss IIA, with 60 second rest periods.

[superset w/ full rest]:
front squat 3x12x35
bent over bb row 3x12x45

[superset w/ full rest]:
supine hip extension w/ leg curl 3x12xbw
bb push press 3x12x40

[superset w/ full rest]:
dynamic lunge 3x12x10 (per leg)
upper body Russian twist 3x12x10 (per side)

6:50 AM - apple & cottage cheese

10:30 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

1:35 PM - chicken breast & baked sweet potato w/ ketchup & mayonnaise; I know I went too long without eating but I got busy with housework

5:45 PM - turkey bacon, scrambled eggs w/ green pepper, onion, pepper jack cheese, salsa & sour cream

9:30 PM - rice cakes w/ peanut butter & Splenda, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

Calories - 1728
Carbs - 141 (15 fiber)
Protein - 110
Fat - 78
C/P/F Ratio - 33/25.8/41.2

NROL - Week 13 - Thursday

My body hates me today, and will surely hate me even more tomorrow. Every muscle aches, and I still have my class at the fitness center today. With that in mind, I skipped my regularly scheduled cardio this morning. I will make it up Saturday if I feel like I need to but I really think I'm going to rest. I have 400 more pages to read in the book I'm on, so I have to get that done this weekend.

Okay, I missed my class. Want to know why? As I was getting ready to leave, my son's 45 pound pumpkin burst open and spewed pumpkin stuff everywhere! Part of my living room carpet is ruined. The front of my bar is going to need to be redone. The top of the bar might be shot too, because I can't move the pumpkin until my husband gets home. I have nothing to maneuver it into - did I spell that right?? So now, I've missed my class and I'm sitting here gagging because my house smells like rotten pumpkin. I tried to clean up the carpet but our shampooer isn't the greatest.

8:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:50 PM - apple & cottage cheese

3:15 PM - toast w/ butter

7:15 PM - Tendergrill chicken sandwich & medium fries from Burger King; I was in a bad mood and didn't want salad. At least I accounted for it on my tracker

Calories - 1506
Carbs - 160 (15 fiber)
Protein - 80
Fat - 68
C/P/F Ratio - 40.7/20.2/39.1

NROL - Week 13 - Wednesday

FAT LOSS IIB SUCKS!!!!!!!!!! I really did think my legs were going to tear apart while I was doing it. I hate it. HATE IT! But I did it!!! And I'll do it again next week. Twice. I'm sure I'll still hate it.

I forgot to mention in Monday's post that the rest period is 60 seconds.

[superset w/ full rest]:
snatch grip deadlift 3x12x60
push up (on knees) 3x12xbw - these are supposed to be T push ups but I can't even do regular push ups yet, and I don't feel guilty for subbing

[superset w/ full rest]:
Bulgarian split squat w/ overhead db press 3x12x10 - these were the worst bitch of an exercise I have ever done, and I had to do sets of 6 in order to get through them, and no, I don't feel guilty for doing that!!
underhand lat pull 3x12x68 - since I can't do chin ups, these are an acceptable substitution

[superset w/ full rest]:
Romanian deadlift w/ bent over bb row 3x12x45
lower body Russian twist 3x12xbw (per side)

It all sucked.

The fitness trainer from that place where my husband won the sessions called. I start tomorrow. He's a champion powerlifting squatter or something. I'm terrified LOL

6:50 AM - apple & cottage cheese

10:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

12:35 PM - chicken sandwich; the power went out in the house for about 2 hours and I couldn't make anything to eat

4:40 PM - rice cakes; I've been running around all afternoon and haven't had time to eat, and now I'm just waiting for dinner

6:20 PM - roasted chicken (dark meat) & broccoli in garlic butter

I know my numbers aren't great today. I have no appetite at all.

Calories - 1055
Carbs - 87 (13 fiber)
Protein - 102
Fat - 37
C/P/F Ratio - 32/37.6/30.4

NROL - Week 13 - Tuesday

I hate exercising when it's cold in my house. I freeze my ass off from the time I get into my workout clothes until I get warmed up. If I dress in something warm, I'm too uncomfortable during the workout. So it's always a challenge to get motivated on cold mornings. Today was the first of those. I also hate drinking water on cold days, especially cardio days. When I lift weights, there's plenty of opportunity to get my water in. With cardio, I don't get those breaks so I end up with a lot left to drink after I finish exercising. I really need to learn to spread my water out during the day, but there's just something about getting it out of the way that's satisfying to me.

Anyway...

I did the Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout today. I was going to throw in a Tabata but my legs - especially my glutes - hate me today. I'll try to reintroduce Tabatas next week. It's going to be hard enough to lift tomorrow.

My husband rocks. He won me a free week of something and a free session with a personal trainer at a local fitness place. Finally, I'll have help with squat and deadlift form!!!!

8:35 AM - apple & cottage cheese, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

12:15 PM - tuna fish, mayo & cheese on wheat bread, coffee w/ cream & Splenda; I haven't been able to find my double fiber bread in weeks - it's pissing me off.

1:30 PM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

6:00 PM - broccoli & cauliflower w/ Caesar vinaigrette dressing, cube steak

Not a stellar day in terms of calories but I'm really not hungry.

Calories - 1179
Carbs - 91 (15 fiber)
Protein - 100
Fat - 47
C/P/F Ratio - 30.6/33.7/35.6

NROL - Week 13 - Monday

I'm back and feeling pretty good. I have no idea what the damage was from my 3 weeks of whatever that was. I don't want to get on the scale for a while. I just want to focus on getting back into things, and I'm worried I'll be discouraged if I see it. So, no scale for a while.

Today's workout was Fat Loss IIA. Except for the front squats, I loved it. I have a hard time with barbell placement, even though I researched and practiced yesterday afternoon. I think it's one of those things that just comes to you with practice. My weights were ridiculously low, but until I'm comfortable with the bar in front of me, I have to keep it that way. It was a bit disappointing, though. And I'm sore already.

[superset w/ full rest]:
front squat 3x12x25
bent over bb row 3x12x45

[superset w/ full rest]:
supine hip extension w/ leg curl 3x12xbw
bb push press 3x12x35

[superset w/ full rest]:
dynamic lunge 3x12x10 (per leg)
upper body Russian twist 3x12x10 (per side)

7:50 AM - apple & cottage cheese

11:50 AM - bacon ranch salad w/ grilled chicken from McDonald's; I forgot we might be going to lunch after voting this morning

3:10 PM - cauliflower; I had forgotten how good vegetables can be

5:30 PM - eggs w/ mozzarella cheese, green pepper, onion, garlic, sour cream & salsa, turkey bacon

7:20 PM - apple, cottage cheese, rice cake

Calories - 1436
Carbs - 111 (18 fiber)
Protein - 133
Fat - 53
C/P/F Ratio - 30.4/36.5/33

NROL - Week 12 - Rest of the Week

It's been a week of horrible eating. Between my son being so sick and me dealing with the other stuff going on, my mind has just not been in this at all. I am disappointed that I couldn't get through this without eating badly. I did have some small binges, but for the most part, it was just a matter of eating bad things, even in normal quantities. All I can really do is start fresh tomorrow.

NROL - Week 12 - Tuesday

8:40 AM - apple & cottage cheese, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:30 AM - homemade soup, coffee w/ cream & Splenda, Dibs ice cream; I had a few of my son's Dibs - he won't even eat ice cream :(

3:10 PM - yogurt

4:10 PM - croutons; I ate them out of a huge bag for 20 minutes :(

4:30 PM - hot dog; I think I'm losing control

7:00 PM - sandwiches, baked beans, chips; I no longer think...

NROL - Week 12 - Monday

I was all set to lift weights this morning - dressed, warmed up, equipment ready. I couldn't get into a good position for front squats and that was frustrating the hell out of me. My son woke up while I was making my attempts and he was really, really sick. I decided to try again with weights tomorrow and get him to the doctor. He has ear and sinus infections. Bad mommy. I've been running around all afternoon buying more medications that's I didn't have. Tylenol isn't helping so I had to buy some Motrin to alternate. I just hope his headache and neck pain go away soon so I can send him back to school without worrying whether or not he'll need medication.

6:40 AM - apple & cottage cheese, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

11:20 AM - whole wheat pumpkin muffins w/ butter, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

2:20 PM - scrambled eggs w/ cheese, salsa, sour cream on tortilla

5:40 PM - beef, pasta & vegetable (green beans, corn, peas) soup; it took me 45 minutes to eat 2 bowls of this - it was really hot, but so satisfying

No numbers today because I didn't feel like measuring out the homemade soup. I dream of the day where I don't have to measure everything. If I could just get myself into the habit of eating more vegetables and recognizing portion sizes accurately, I think I'd be good.

NROL - Week 11 - Weekend

I am desperate for things to return to normal around here. I'm overeating and eating things that aren't the best, but I'm not binging. My schedule is so messed up and I'm completely exhausted and nauseated most of the time. If I don't finish everything I need to get done within 90 minutes of waking up, it is not getting done.

My only decent meal was Saturday's lunch. I had some chicken breast and broccoli with ranch dressing and turkey bacon. High on calories but at least it wasn't pizza and and junk. I have been pretty good about not eating too much junk, but I definitely think I'm over the calorie limits for my days. I'm not eating on a regular schedule because I really can't choke anything down when I'm nauseated.

My 4 year old is still sick. I'm up most of the night with him but I'm going to try to get him in to see his pediatrician tomorrow. This coming week is going to be so hectic. I have five different appointments confirmed, and hopefully his ped. The plan is to resume lifting tomorrow. I'm a bit worried that I'll be too tired for it, but at the same time, I' hopeful it will help me feel better. Eating will be on plan tomorrow, too, damn it.

NROL - Week 11 - Wednesday/Thursday

Wednesday was not a good day for food. Since we were traveling, there was much fast food and convenience store cuisine. Thursday is not going much better. I'm not eating fast food, but I'm just not hungry at all today. It's well after noon and I've only had coffee and some muffins. Of course, after taking my son to school, I came home and went back to bed. I'm so tired.

My surgery isn't until next week (Thursday), but I intend to resume weight lifting on Monday now that I know I'm not ectopic. That was a big drain on me. With that worry out of the way, I feel mentally well enough to exercise again.

I know this isn't much of an entry, but there isn't much to blog about. LOL

NROL - Week 11 - Tuesday

I was feeling a little better this morning. Well enough to take care of my recycling and vacuum my house. I don't know what was wrong with me yesterday. I was in such a panic over things that were probably all in my head. I'm better today. There's so much anxiety over whether or not this pregnancy is ectopic and the symptoms are so "common" that I can't tell if they are normal or not. Yesterday, I started having some pain in my shoulder, which could indicate a ruptured fallopian tube and internal bleeding. But I couldn't tell if I was really having pain or if it was just psychosomatic because of my paranoia. At any rate, I am anxious to deal with this.

I'm not logging my food in the tracker. I don't have the mental clarity to focus on that. I am writing down what I eat though.

8:40 AM - apple & cottage cheese

9:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:35 AM - toast w/ butter, Uncrustables; I was fine until I decided to eat the last 2 pb&j Uncrustables; I didn't need them but I wanted them

12:30 PM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

1:25 PM - chicken breast & cheese on tortilla

4:10 PM - cheese; just something quick to hold me over until the muffins were done

4:20 PM - whole wheat pumpkin muffins; these aren't as good as the ones I've made with carrots but I'm sure going to eat the heck out of them; I have been craving pumpkin muffins or bread or cake for two weeks now

5:00 PM - chicken breast, dinner rolls, mashed potatoes w/ gravy

6:50 PM - carrots, couple Cheese Its

I was a pig today.

NROL - Week 11 - Monday

I've decided to take another week off from exercise. I just do not have the energy and can't be on my feet too long without getting dizzy. I hope to be good to go by next Monday, and I'll have enough time to get my next program in before our trip to New York, if we even end up going.

8:30 AM - apple & cottage cheese, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

9:40 AM - toast w/ butter

1:25 PM - chicken breast & cucumber w/ ranch dressing

4:00 PM - peppermint drops and some of my son's Dibs (which I didn't log); I am so close to losing control right now; I'm an emotional wreck and quite frankly, terrified something will go wrong before I see a doctor on Wednesday

???? - I had some pizza for dinner but by that time I was feeling so crappy, I turned off my computer and just lumped on the couch. I had 3 pieces and felt a little guilty about it, but then decided I didn't care

NROL - Week 10 - Sunday

I forgot to get on the scale this morning. To be honest, I wouldn't have liked what I saw anyway. I feel bloated from last night's little binge. Mentally, I think I'm over it, though!

Physically, I am completely drained. I have no energy at all and I am really worried that I won't be able to start my new NROL program tomorrow. I'm wondering if I should even start it until after my procedure (which will hopefully be Saturday). I need 4 weeks to complete it at 3 lifts per week. I can do it in 3 weeks if I lift 4 times per week, but I really don't know if I am up for it. I don't know if I can complete the program before we leave for New York. But I'm really afraid I'll hurt myself because I just don't have the energy to do much more than walk from room to room, never mind squatting and such with weights.

On a positive note, I figured out a solution to my stupid numbers problem with my lifting. You may have noticed that anything I do with a barbell isn't an increment of 5 pounds, because my bar weighs 12 pounds. I found my adjustable ankle weights, so I think I'm just going to throw 3 pounds in them and strap them to the bar.

8:45 AM - skim milk

9:20 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

9:35 AM - toast w/ butter

12:00 PM - chicken w/ cheese & onion sauce on tortilla, coffee w/ cream & Splenda

3:10 PM - apple & cottage cheese

5:30 PM - chicken, cream of chicken soup, buttermilk biscuits; I didn't measure this out

I also ate a few spoonfuls of Cool Whip.

NROL - Week 10 - Saturday

I am going to confess what is going on with me. It might upset some people reading my blog here, because I have no idea where you guys stand on these things. But it might help me if I can stop being so damn cryptic and really focus on my struggles. It might also be TMI.

Since the birth of my son 4 years ago, I've had a Paragard IUD. I found out Monday that I'm pregnant despite the IUD still being in place. These things are supposed to be super effective (over 99%) and even though only abstinence is 100%, the odds of getting pregnant were pretty slim. I've been so paranoid about getting pregnant, I rarely have sex with my husband. My ability to parent is pretty crappy. Don't get me wrong - I love my son more than anything, but I just don't have the energy and patience to start over with another baby. Plus, we absolutely cannot afford another child. We have no room for a baby, I gave all the baby stuff away, and I have to find a job as soon as possible because of my student loan bills.

With an IUD, there's a slightly higher chance of an ectopic pregnancy. I'm not experiencing any symptoms of that, at about 6 weeks, so that's good. We don't have insurance so the last thing I need is emergency surgery. The chances of a miscarriage with immediate IUD removal are about 25%. If the IUD is left in, the odds go up to 50%. Given the odds and our inability to raise another child, we've decided not to continue with the pregnancy. My husband and I are very pro-choice and it wasn't a hard decision.

What is hard is the waiting. The first available appointment with Planned Parenthood isn't until this coming Wednesday, and it's 2 hours away. My husband is able to go with me for the initial consultation, but I'll have to go back by myself for the follow ups. So, knowing I'll be alone for this is really stressing me out. In addition, there are the normal pregnancy issues to deal with - cravings, food aversions (I am so sick of chicken!!!), hunger, nausea, heartburn, lack of energy, being an emotional wreck. I'm struggling with my body, which tells me to eat, and my emotions, which want me to stay on track because of our decision. But it's hard to be business as usual when you're all alone in this. We haven't told anyone, really. Certainly no family. Just a few of my online friends. My husband forgets that I'm overly sensitive right now so he continues to be his insensitive self. And when I'm upset, I want to eat. It's just frustrating all around.

9:00 AM - graham cracker w/ whipped topping; I made some "ice cream sandwiches" for my son and he didn't want the whole thing, so I ate the rest of it. I'm so tired of that kid wasting food but he's only 4. I don't usually eat his leftovers but I hadn't eaten yet and quite frankly, I've been pretty well behaved when it comes to food this week and it's okay if I slip once or twice.

9:15 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:55 AM - toast w/ butter, cottage cheese

12:30 PM - graham cracker w/ whipped topping

1:45 PM - steak

3:45 PM - graham cracker w/ whipped topping; I feel really guilty for eating these

4:20 PM - Smorz cereal; I've obviously given in, and I've stopped logging in my tracker

4:50 PM - Smorz cereal

5:40 PM - Chinese food; it tasted weird and I couldn't eat all of it.

I also had a few Cheese Its, more of my Chinese food, and more graham crackers & whipped topping.

I'm not feeling well at all and now I've got guilt. I am completely disgusted with myself.

NROL - Week 10 - Friday

More of the same. Blah. NOTHING tastes good at all, but I'm hungry and I have to choke everything down.

8:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

8:15 AM - toast w/ butter

11:00 - grilled cheese sandwich

12:30 PM - roasted chicken (dark meat), cheese, barbecue sauce on tortilla

6:30 PM - roasted pork tenderloin, carrots - believe it or not, this has me so full!!!

8:30 PM - grilled cheese sandwich

Calories - 1422
Carbs - 135 (44 fiber)
Protein - 109
Fat - 63
C/P/F Ratio - 35.1/28.3/36.6

NROL - Week 10 - Thursday

Still hanging in there. I'm exhausted and everything I eat tastes horrible. I can't wait for this to be over and things can go back to normal. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, and just let my body do what it needs/wants but I am terrified of knocking myself off track, especially with Thanksgiving so close. If I fall off the wagon now, I will find every excuse in the book to eat crap for the rest of the year. I've worked too hard in the last ten weeks to screw that up.

I've really been craving Fig Newtons. I haven't had them in years. I looked up the nutritional information a few days ago and they definitely aren't something good to eat, calorie-wise. Even the fat free stuff is scary. But I didn't care. I walked up to the store with every intention of buying some Fig Newtons. I picked a small package off the shelf, then put it back and walked home. I'm quite proud of myself that even now, in this emotional upheaval, I was able to do that.

8:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:20 AM - chicken breast w/ cheese & onion sauce on tortilla

1:30 PM - colby cheese

2:50 PM - red beans

5:10 PM - walnuts; I was trying to hold off until I figured out what to eat for dinner, but I got very dizzy

5:45 PM - roasted chicken (dark meat), pasta, peas

Calories - 1655
Carbs - 126 (33 fiber)
Protein - 118
Fat - 76
C/P/F Ratio - 30.4/28.4/41.2

NROL - Week 10 - Wednesday

I apologize for being so vague and distant this week. Things are just rough and I don't have the strength to sort it all out well enough to blog. Bottom line is, I'm fine and just need to get through the next couple weeks.

8:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

11:00 AM - eggs, toast w/ butter

11:25 AM - brown rice

1:20 PM - more brown rice

1:45 PM - cucumbers

4:50 PM - mozzarella string cheese

5:15 PM - cottage cheese

6:15 PM - Italian sausage w/ green pepper, onion, garlic, tomato sauce & red beans

No numbers today because I didn't weigh dinner.

NROL - Week 10 - Tuesday

Another crappy night of sleep. I fell asleep around 11 and woke up around 5 with a stuffy head again. I've been nauseated and just blah. I alternate between not wanting to eat and feeling like I just can't eat enough. I'm trying so hard to hold this all together. It's a very, very rough time right now, emotionally.

8:10 AM - apple & cottage cheese

9:40 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

11:20 AM - eggs, salsa & cheese on a tortilla w/ turkey bacon

2:35 PM - peanut butter & jelly sandwich; I am just starving eating this and want more

5:45 PM - sirloin & brown rice

Calories - 1750
Carbs - 131 (24 fiber)
Protein - 134
Fat - 78
C/P/F Ratio - 29.8/30.4/39.9

NROL - Week 10 - Monday

I slept like crap last night. I fell asleep around 10:30, then woke up at 1:00 when my humidifier stopped steaming. I filled it up before I went to bed but I forgot to put more salt in, so it was useless. Usually, if I put a wet washcloth over my face, I'm ok, but that just wasn't working last night. I tossed and turned for about an hour, then slept until 5:30. I'm beat today, no energy at all. I'm glad I have no weights scheduled today. I know I said I'd use the Wii Fit but I just want to sleep.

I'm not too chatty today. There's stuff going on that I can't blog about yet but it's affecting a lot of things. No one is dying or gravely ill LOL There's just a health concern I need to deal with.

6:45 AM - apple & cottage cheese; I bought some Gala apples because they were on sale and I don't care for them - they are too soft inside; maybe I can get my son to eat them all

8:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

11:00 AM - chicken breast & green beans w/ light balsamic vinaigrette dressing

11:30 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

1:10 PM - grilled cheese sandwich; I could easily become a grilled cheese sandwich addict - every time I make one, I want another!

5:45 PM - round steak & red beans

Calories - 1357
Carbs - 115 (32 fiber)
Protein - 148
Fat - 39
C/P/F Ratio - 32.9/42.3/24.8

NROL - Week 9 - Sunday

150.5 today, up half a pound. I'm still sick, and I spent the morning and most of the afternoon being a total lump on the couch or back in bed. I also ate off plan - so far off plan it's laughable - but I am not giving it a second thought! I don't feel guilty in the least. I indulged but did not binge.

There's something on my mind, and I'm having a hard time putting it into words. Today, I really wanted a Deluxe Big Breakfast from McDonald's, the one with the eggs, biscuit, sausage, hash brown, and pancakes. I knew it wasn't a smart choice but I wanted it. I went through other options in my head, but it kept coming back to the Big Breakfast. So I got one. It tasted like crap because of my cold but other than that, I was really ambivalent toward my decision. In my mind, it was okay to eat it (as in, not a binge) because I was in total control the whole time. But what I've I'm just convincing myself that I am in control, just as a way to rationalize poor decisions? I realize that binge eating is more complex than that, but the control issue is the one I struggle with the most. I honestly feel like I was in control, and I'm certain it wasn't just a reaction to the slight weight gain.

I'll be honest, my eating hasn't been great today, in terms of eating on time, and I'm not sure I'm trying to compensate for my breakfast or it's because I'm sick. Eating has been wonky all week. So that's the last I'll dwell on that! I'm noting it all here AND I logged it in my tracker. If I were losing it, I would have neglected that. Of course, that doesn't make it all better, but it's progress for me. I'm not ignoring the food, as if I never ate it.

7:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

10:20 AM - Deluxe Big Breakfast from McDonald's, tea w/ cream & Splenda

4:10 PM - carrots

5:40 PM - chicken breast, cheese, barbecue sauce, tortilla; my mouth is definitely not hungry but my body is

Calories - 1791
Carbs - 187 (13 fiber)
Protein - 87
Fat - 77
C/P/F Ratio - 41.7/19.4/38.9

NROL - Week 9 - Saturday

I keep forgetting to note my sleep patterns. I slept quite a bit last night, from 9 PM - 7 AM, but I started waking up with a stuffy nose around 4 AM. It's so dry in my house but it's too hot to run the humidifier. I have a bowl of water in the bedroom for now. Anyway...

7:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda; I don't really feel like eating

10:45 AM - homemade breakfast burrito (eggs, cheese, onion & green pepper on tortilla); not really hungry but my body needs food and I'm heading out to volunteer at the school's Pumpkin Fair for a few hours - they having a bake sale and I need strength to resist

2:10 PM - carrots; I made it through the Pumpkin Fair without eating anything; I was even working the Cupcake Walk and the smell of the cupcakes actually made me feel ill

4:10 PM - carrots & chicken (dark meat)

7:30 PM - Special K Protein Plus cereal w/ banana & skim milk; bah - this just made me hungrier

I haven't been all that chatty lately. Sorry about that!

Calories - 1434
Carbs - 134 (31 fiber)
Protein - 115
Fat - 54
C/P/F Ratio - 36.3/31/32.6

NROL - Week 9 - Friday

I am absolutely beat! I woke up this morning with a ridiculously sore throat and I couldn't talk louder than a whisper. Exercise was the last thing on my mind. I told myself there was no way I could get through it without dying. Well, I did it, and I'm still here, but thank goodness I have next week off! Knowing that was the only thing that kept me going during the workout. Next week, all my exercise is going to be on the Wii, unless I get sicker, then I'll just relax.

My throat is really killing me. I want ice cream, or something similar, to help soothe it. Something cold. But I don't want to use my sore throat as an excuse to eat ice cream. I did have one of my son's Dibs (which are really tiny chunks of ice cream) and it felt really good for 2 whole seconds :( Then my throat hurt again.

Today's workout was Fat Loss 1B, with 45 second rest periods:

[superset w/ full rest]:
(conventional) deadlift 3x10x67
db incline bench press 3x10x25

[superset w/ full rest]:
Bulgarian split-squat 3x10x7.5 (per leg)
mixed-grip lat pulldown 3x10x68

[superset w/ full rest]:
Romanian deadlift 3x10x67
Swiss ball lateral roll 3x10xbw (per side) - good riddance to these things - I fell off the ball just about every time

6:40 AM - apple & cottage cheese; not hungry but had to eat so I could have energy for my workout

9:50 AM - mozzarella cheese; I was starving but had to get grocery shopping done; I figured I'd better eat something or go nuts at the store

11:30 AM - grilled bacon ranch salad w/ ranch dressing from McDonald's; even though I had cooked chicken at home and had just gone grocery shopping, I did not feel like putting anything together

12:15 PM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

2:00 PM - grilled cheese sandwich; I just wanted something warm and the coffee just wasn't doing it for me; however, this made me hungrier

5:05 PM - banana

5:40 PM - mixed vegetables & grilled chicken leg quarters; I'm so disappointed - with my throat and taste buds shot, this was not a satisfying meal at all

I'm not sure how accurate my numbers are. I ended up drinking only 3 cups of coffee, and logged 4, and I didn't eat all the skin/meat on my chicken at dinner. That's why I hate food with bones in it. Plus, I didn't log the Dib I ate.

Calories - 1652
Carbs - 133 (22 fiber)
Protein - 133
Fat - 70
C/P/F Ratio - 31.4/31.5/37.1

NROL - Week 9 - Thursday

I did the Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout today and could barely get through it. I finished, of course, but I was getting the moves mixed up, I couldn't concentrate and I had no energy at all, even though I'd eaten my usual. I had also planned to do Ab Jam, but by the time my 20 minutes was up, I just wanted a shower and something warm to drink. But it took me 2+ more hours to choke down my water before I'd allow myself any coffee. This self imposed "rule" is so dumb. There's no reason I have to drink all my water before anything else - I just like to get it out of the way.

I'm also very hungry today. I don't know if it was last night's carby soup or what. I just know that I want more soup today and don't have the ingredients. I need to go grocery shopping but I also have to go to the bank and I don't want to make two trips out. Plus, I just want to curl up in some warm pajamas and watch the debate tonight and hope my VP nominee does well.

I really have ice cream on the mind. My throat hurts a little. Ice cream would soothe it.

6:45 AM - apple & cottage cheese

9:30 AM - cheese, onion & green pepper omelet on a tortilla with turkey bacon; this was so delicious and filling; it was like heaven in my mouth, I swear!!

11:15 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

2:00 PM - chicken breast w/ mozzarella cheese & pasta sauce

5:15 PM - I made some sort of chicken/onion/tortilla concoction with sour cream and salsa; I didn't measure anything because I just didn't feel like it and sometimes it is nice to be normal; so, no numbers tonight, but I've been good, I promise!

6:50 PM - carrots; I didn't measure these either

Yeah! No ice cream!

NROL - Week 9 - Wednesday

I desperately need one of two things: 2 1.5 pound standard weight plates, or a barbell that weighs in at an increment of 5 pounds. My current barbell (and my EZ curl bar) weighs 12 pounds. That makes my numbers look totally stupid. I suppose my barbell did weigh an even 10 pounds at one point, but my husband had to lengthen it to fit the stand, since we bought the two things separately. I wish I had room for an Olympic set up, but then I'd barely be using any weights on that heavy bar! As it is, I am going to need more smaller (2.5 and 5 pound) weights. There just isn't enough time to swap out with some of the rest periods NROL uses. The 45 seconds I'm on now is barely enough time for me to get a drink and get into position for my next set.

Today was Fat Loss IA, with 45 second rest periods:

[superset w/ full rest]:
squat 3x10x52
bent over bb row 3x10x47

[superset w/ full rest]:
supine hip extension 3x10x10
db push press 3x10x20

[superset w/ full rest]:
rotational lunge 3x10x10 (per leg)
swiss ball crunch 3x10x25

6:45 AM - apple & cottage cheese

9:00 AM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

11:30 AM - chicken & rice soup, grilled chicken salad w/ ranch dressing; I went out for lunch with a friend; I knew what I was getting to eat ahead of time because I checked the menu out online, and that really helped with the temptation; the restaurant we went to has fabulous burgers but getting one never even crossed my mind; I also only used 1/3 of the dressing they gave me for my salad

1:15 PM - coffee w/ cream & Splenda

3:10 PM - carrots & mozzarella string cheese

3:45 PM - yogurt

5:40 PM - homemade chicken soup (chicken breast, whole wheat pasta, mixed vegetables, Italian blend cheese); this was so wonderful - better than the soup I had at the restaurant today; I ate three bowls, which was "worth" about 2 servings of each ingredient; I am warm and full and completely satisfied

No numbers today, but overall, I am pleased with what I ate.