32 Days - Change of Plans

I decided not to do Stronglifts today. I spent a good six hours deep cleaning my apartment. My neck is all jacked up because I slept on it wrong the other night, and I really just want to rest up to start New Rules of Lifting on Sunday. Since I spent so much time making my pretty spreadsheets, I am damn well going to use the fucking things. I feel like I've been back at this long enough that I feel committed. I'll be taking pics and doing measurements and a Fit Test on Sunday. I haven't decided exactly what is going into it, but I will be pulling from the Insanity fit tests (from the original Insanity and Asylum), as well as P90X. I've never done the Asylum fit test so this should be fun. Pull ups are on the list and I already know I won't bother with that. I will take the big fat 0. I will say, I am not looking forward to the high reps of NROL's Break In workouts. But whatever.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - homemade bagel bite & pepperoni - [11]

33 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Thursday

I spend way too much time thinking about working out and not enough time actually getting physical activity in.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [9]
Lunch - yogurt & hard boiled eggs [7]
Dinner - beef fajita salad w/ sour cream, salsa & cheese [12]

34 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Wednesday

I really wanted some junk food last night - Girl Scout Cookies or ice cream. But I didn't give in to temptation. I gave in to anger instead, and just went to bed. But I knew if I ate a cookie, I would eat the box.

Workout A-3

squat - 5x5x85 lbs - Yes, same as last time. I wasn't all that comfortable with my squat the other day.
bench press - 5x5x65 lbs - I did go up on this one. 5 pounds more than I was supposed to. Oops.
barbell row - 5x5x65 lbs - This one, too.

I am leaning towards adding to the Stronglifts workouts next week, then switching to BGB in May. I don't know what accessory exercises I could add because my muscles are just toast when I finish these. I just don't care for the routine in general. I don't know. Fuck me.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - Nothing
Dinner - Italian sausage and potatoes [13]

35 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Tuesday

I really, really do not enjoy the Stronglifts workouts. I don't know what to do. Stick it out for 5 more weeks or do something else next week? I want to go back to my BGB four day push/pull split because I absolutely adore it. Fuck, I don't know. I do know that I need to stay off the scale. I ate food yesterday and I'm up a pound. Maybe I should not get back on until my birthday. I don't know. Such a mind fuck, seeing that number go up.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda and creamer [6]
Lunch - salad w/ chicken, hard boiled eggs & Italian dressing [10]
Dinner - breakfast sausage [15] - Someone ate my fucking eggs.

36 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Monday

Regular coffee today, folks.It's Monday. I think I need regular coffee on Mondays and Wednesdays. I'll shoot for cold brewed on Tuesdays & Thursdays.

Workout B-2

squat - 5x5x85 lbs
overhead press - 5x5x45 lbs - Yes, I know this is what I did last week, but since I couldn't complete that last set, I'm repeating the weight.
deadlift - 5x5x95 lbs

There is no way in hell I am increasing my weights for the next round. These were difficult and I think my form was off.

Food
Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [12]
Lunch - yogurt & pepper slices [3]
Dinner - omelet w/ pepperoni, cheese and salsa [14]

I'm not happy with the amount of food I ate today but whatever. I need to eat. Still working on hitting those macros.

37 Days - Stronglifts - Week 2 - Sunday

So, going into Week 7, I've lost 11.5 pounds. Yes, I know it's because I'm hardly eating, basically living on my coffee creamer. I know that shit has to stop. I have to get over this fucking mental hurdle. This is why I hate trying to lose weight. It fucks with my head. I feel guilty eating anything, and all I want is junk, my comfort food.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [6] - I'm going to start iced coffee tomorrow. Hopefully I will like that better with the protein powder and milk.
Lunch - tuna w/ light mayo on light English muffin [8]
Dinner - I was going to eat, but I got pissed off so fuck it.
Snack - banana [0]

38 Days - Stronglifts - Week 1 - Saturday

I am really a cranky fucking bitch today. I'm tired. I'm stressed. I want to eat total crap and my weight loss is slow. I still look like a giant blob. Why the fuck am I doing this? I'm hella resentful that I can't eat what I want.

Food

Breakfast - coffee w/ Splenda & creamer [10] - I am actually starting to scale back on shit a bit.