NROL - Week 22 - Wednesday

Last day of feeling sorry for myself. I'm going out to lunch with a friend and I will be back on plan tomorrow. There is no more junk in the house, except for that bag of M&Ms I bought myself a few months ago and haven't opened. I can't believe it. All the crap I've eaten in the last week and those are still there. I did make a promise to myself though - I wasn't going to eat them until I had a plan.

Hyper IB, 4x10 with 60 second rests today.

[superset w/ full rest]:
squat 4x10x55
Romanian deadlift w/ shrug 4x10x55

[superset w/ full rest]:
Bulgarian split-squat 4x10x10 (per leg)
step-up 4x10x10 (per leg)

reverse crunch 3x15xbw

With all the garbage I've eaten today, it's very easy to see how we (Americans) have gotten so fat. Dinner alone was over maintenance calories for me, and I didn't even bat an eye.

NROL - Week 22 - Tuesday

I didn't exercise today. I just didn't feel like it. Damn this funk. And I tried to make pancakes this morning and screwed up the recipe. "How does one screw up a batch of Jiffy pancakes?" you ask. I meant to cut the recipe in half, and I did cut the amount of Jiffy mix in half, but I used the whole amount of milk. Then I tried to thicken it up and made it too thick to even pour, so I tossed it all, ticked off that I can't even get pancakes right. So I had no bake cookies for breakfast. We're out of those now, thankfully.

Ugh. Just ugh!!

NROL - Week 22 - Monday

I am so mad at myself!!!!!!! I started off great then had such a crappy morning that I lost it by lunch time, then things continued to get worse. I don't even freaking care what I eat for the rest of the day. It's just little stuff getting to me, which makes it completely ridiculous that I can't hold it together long enough to get through a stressful day. I don't know why things are getting to me this way, either. It's not the cold I had - which I'm not even sure was really a cold. If I didn't know better, I'd say there was something stuffed up my nose. I cannot unblock it at all. Nasal sprays, Vicks, blowing, even a Neti pot - useless!

So, breakfast was typical, and I packed appropriate snacks for the drive to Virginia. I was running late, my son's new DVD player wasn't working, I had to drop off the recycling in the rain - that all made me grumpy. The lab techs were rude and weren't going to let me get my blood drawn because if my stuffy nose. I had to call the bone marrow place and my contact is out of the office until next Monday. I was getting upset because I didn't want to have made a second useless trip. I called a number on the switchboard thingy and finally got a human voice in the main marrow office (I think) and talked to them, and told me it "should be fine" to give them my blood. Whatever. The phelbotomist who was pissy when I got there got ready to draw my blood, and I was sure she'd stick me hard on purpose, just because I was defensive. But I never felt the needle so that was a ray of freaking sunshine.

Then on the way home, I stopped at Burger King and got a Whopper & fries. Frak it, I didn't care. I was going to have a salad but it's hard to choke down bland stuff with my nose the way it is. Greasy meat isn't much better but I was at least able to taste the onion. So then I was mad for eating crap, so I ate a stupid granola bar. Then, I got to the post office to mail a package and they were closed. By now, I'm really annoyed and decided that my crappy day needed ice cream. So when I got home, I had ice cream. And no bake cookies. And more no bake cookies. And now here I am, somewhere between not caring and hating myself.

Today was HyperIA, 5x5 with 90 seconds rests.

[superset w/ full rest]:
db incline press 5x5x25
Yates row 5x5x65

[superset w/ full rest]:
db shoulder press 5x5x20
inverted row - 5x5xbw - I love these!! Ok, not love but I like them a lot better than lat pulls. I need to do some flexibility work because my arm felt a little tight. And for the record, I can't pull myself all the way up, so there's lots of room to improve

[superset w/ full rest]:
bb close grip bench press 5x5x50
high pull 5x5x50

Swiss ball crunch 3x15x30

NROL - Week 21 - Sunday

151 today, that's up 2 pounds from my last weigh in. I'm not shocked. That's what happens when I eat too much junk. I'm going to be weighing (and measuring) again on Thursday, for the new year.

No exercise today. I didn't have any scheduled but since I skipped yesterday, I was hoping I'd feel well enough to do something. But I don't.

7:45 AM - coffee w/ half-and-half & Splenda

9:30 AM - egg salad sandwich; I made this with horseradish sauce, hoping to clear my sinuses because nothing else is working

12:15 PM - pickle

12:40 PM - Havarti cheese, California blend mixed vegetables, chicken breast

2:45 PM - almonds

4:30 PM - corn, grilled hamburger w/ onion, Havarti cheese, mustard, ketchup & horseradish sauce

Calories - 1478
Carbs - 102 (23 fiber)
Protein - 86
Fat - 83
C/P/F Ratio - 27.3/22.9/49.8

NROL - Week 21 - Saturday

I did have cardio scheduled today but this cold is kicking my ass. I ended up snorting saline last night to get some relief from the plugged up nose. I took medicines that didn't even dent the pain in my head. I feel like I've been sick an awful lot this year, and I'm getting tired of it.

8:30 AM - coffee w/ half-and-half & Splenda; for some reason, the coffee has tasted pretty sweet the last couple days, so I didn't put the 1/2 teaspoon of granular in; it's still sweet so I might try just 2 drops of liquid next time; I'm sure it's all due to my messed up taste buds

10:45 AM - hard boiled eggs; I only ate these because I had to eat something

12:20 PM - turkey breast w/ mayo & cheese on tortilla

5:15 PM - brown rice w/ onion & turkey; I'm so sick of turkey

6:55 PM - ice cream; I debated having this and hated myself for eating it when I didn't need it; to my surprise, I actually put it in my tracker, instead of ignoring it like I wanted to

Calories - 1583
Carbs - 106 (10 fiber)
Protein - 119
Fat - 71
C/P/F Ratio - 27.6/31/41.5

NROL - Week 21 - Friday

Sick. My son and I have something. It's minor - stuffy head and lack of energy, mostly. Eating was horrible today. Nothing has any taste. My body isn't hungry but my mouth is. I'm mad about it but just can't get a handle on it. I just want to chill out (which is what we did most of the day - even had a good nap). My workout sucked today as a result.

Hyper IB, 3x15 with 30 second rests today, which I hate on on a good day.

[superset w/ full rest]:
squat 3x15x40
Romanian deadlift w/ shrug 3x15x40

[superset w/ full rest]:
Bulgarian split-squat 3x15xbw (per leg) - no weights, as I had absolutely no energy
step-up 3x15xbw (per leg) - no weights, as I had absolutely no energy

reverse crunch 3x15xbw

NROL - Week 21 - Thursday

No exercise today. The TV is occupied and there are toys all over my floor. This is why I worked out Sunday :)

I have to say, I am absolutely convinced that too much sugar makes me ill. I felt horrible most of the night and just the thought of eating anything too sweet makes me gag right now. The only "good" thing is that it makes me crave water like crazy, so I drink it, but really, isn't that a sign of something diabetes related??

Not really much to report today. I ate some things that weren't so great but I didn't make myself as sick as yesterday.