P90X - Week 13 - Monday

I was just going to make this a week-long post because I didn't think I'd really have anything to day. I don't, not of importance, but I still need a space to sort out all the crap in my head about my diet. I know I screwed up badly. I think I am over the hump though (for now - I have to accept that I will never not have this problem). I ate cleaner today. I didn't weigh or measure or even track but there was no junk. It was a lot of food, but fairly clean.

As it is Recovery Week, today's workout was Yoga X. I had every intention of doing it at 5 AM, but I did not sleep last night and I just didn't have the energy to do it at that time. I waited until I drank some coffee and finished cleaning my house. By that time, I had my second wind and was able to get through it. I really put a lot of effort into the first half and managed just about everything, including a good portion of the twisting half moon. My crane pose was fantastic. Not the full minute but I get stronger and can hold it longer every time. My hamstring stretches were great. I'm looking forward to that part of the Fit Test on Sunday.

P90X - Week 12 - Sunday

X Stretch today, but I did it without the dvd. Tony yaps too much.

Not much to say, other than I've been cleaning all day and I'm in a really pissy mood.

P90X - Week 12 - Saturday

I had a fantastic Kenpo workout today (362 calories burned)! I almost did Kenpo Cardio+ from the P90X+ series but changed my mind because I want to stick to the schedule as much as possible. I've slacked off a bit on Doubles this past week, but I've been cleaning and will continue to do that, along with trying to squeeze a little extra cardio in during my last week. Not that it will matter - I'm up four pounds from my starting weight.

I haven't mentioned him in a while, but I'm a huge fan of Craig Ballantyne. He recently did an interview with Tony Horton. It's a great listen. Tony talks about how he got started in he fitness business, and how he's evolved. He touches on nutrition, which I really made sure to pay attention to, but it's nothing we don't already know, so it doesn't solve my problem. Heck, I don't even know what my problem is. I don't think it's motivational. I'm motivated. Maybe I'm just an impulsive moron. But anyway, if you don't want to download the mp3, you can read the interview on Craig's blog, but I don't think all parts are up yet.

P90X - Week 12 - Friday

I did my final Ab Ripper X and Legs & Back workouts today. I can't believe the hard part is over. Well, I am not a fan of Recovery Week and I still have to get through that and another Fit Test. But for the most part, it's over. Now I get to be Math Geek and play with numbers to see what I've done. I already calculated how many ARX reps I've done - 10470. And I am pleased to say I did break through my goal of 100 pull ups - I did 108 today.

I still need to figure out what I'm going to do about my horrible eating. I know all the strategies for not making bad choices. I have goals and can picture what I want my body to look like. And I still fail. I really do want to continue with Weight Watchers. Like I've said before - the eating plan itself is not the problem. The whole "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels" saying is bunk. Nothing tastes as good as Death By Chocolate ice cream on a double chocolate brownie. Or a spicy chicken pizza with double mozzarella. So that strategy just won't work for me. I don't buy into it at all. So I need to figure out what I do buy into.

P90X - Week 12 - Thursday

I woke up this morning, feeling like hell. I've had some sinus pressure lately that won't go away not matter what I do. I've tried medicines, steam, neti pot - nada! I don't know if it's a cold or allergies. I have a cough but I think it's due to post-nasal drip, rather than anything else. No fever, no headache unless the sinus pressure is bad. Nights are worse than the day. So when I woke up this morning, I wanted to push Yoga X to Sunday. Then I thought I'd do it Saturday, and do Kenpo on Sunday. Then I thought I'd try to just rest for a bit and do Yoga X later in the day. Finally, I just got off my butt and did the damn yoga. At times, it was hard to do the breathing right, and I was off my game so my moves weren't as steady as they normally are. I have two more shots at nailing this next wee. I will say, today's Crane was pretty darn good.

I don't even know what to say about food. I am so frustrated with myself. I've spent the last six months not in definite weight loss mode that I don't know whether I'm coming or going. Every day, I go back and forth - do I want to lose more or do I want to maintain? All this indecision is causing me to make crappy choices. I want to lose more weight, after all. I wish there was a plan I could actually stick with. No matter what I do, I still eat crap (sometimes lots of it). I don't understand this weakness. I am not eating out of boredom or lack of planning or lack of healthy food on hand. It's not a matter of not buying crap. I have stuff in the house often that I don't even think about, but I'll go buy some other crap when the mood strikes.

P90X - Week 12 - Wednesday

Ab Ripper X and Back & Biceps today. I totally rocked my workout. I was up in weights or reps, and even pulled a few unassisted towel pull ups out of my ass.

Food is not going well. I just can't stop eating crap. I don't know why I can't eat the way I work out. It's pissing me off, to be honest.

P90X - Week 12 - Tuesday

Last night was an intense battle of wills. It was me vs. the toaster strudel. Me - 1, junk - 0. Then it was me vs. the crackers. Me - 2, junk - 0. Finally, it was me vs. Fiber One toaster pastries. Final score: me - 3, junk - 0. It sucked. Truly.

Today was my last Plyometrics workout. I brought it, and burned 416 calories. I know I bitch about Plyo all the time, but it's a keeper. I don't think I want to do it every week, but I won't leave it out of my bag of tricks.

Banana Nut Cheerios w/ skim milk, banana

applesauce cookies

omelet w/ onion, green pepper & salsa, light English muffin w/ jelly

fish sandwich

venison & vegetable soup

bunch of crap...

Four cups of coffee an 80 ounces of water.