2020 - Week 13 & 14

More of the same. Working from home sucks. I'm eating everything in sight and not getting my steps in.

2020 - Week 11 & 12

Food is still sucking. I'm not following my low sodium diet at all. I'm mostly on a Girl Scout cookie diet. With the Captain Tripps going around, everything is jacked up. I am still working in the office four days a week, one from home. I never had a social life so at least I don't need to worry about that. I had a follow up with my doc this week - she'd been ordered to work from home so it was just a phone call. I'm relieved I didn't have to go in to get weighed. I told her I'd been slacking on taking my blood pressure every day. She told me to go back to taking it every day, and she added a calcium channel blocker to my list of meds. I ended up canceling next week's appointment with the vascular specialist because all he was going to do was tell me to keep taking my medicine. For $250, I can figure that one out myself.

2020 - Week 10

Finally some mother fucking progress. Not with food. That has been atrocious but I started lifting again this week and it was amazing. It's just a short workout but it makes me feel so damn good. I managed two work outs this week.

2020 - Week 9

Oh look. More suckage.

2020 - Week 7/Week 8

I need to be honest here. I've slacked off everything the last couple weeks. I don't even care. Not one little fucking bit. My antidepressant is obviously not working because I hate everyone around me. OK, not everyone. One in particular. Work is stressful but I am actually happy at work and the chaotic shit show that is. But home definitely sucks. I don't even want to be here and I'm desperate for some kind of social life. Bah. Fuck.

2020 - Week 6

I sucked this week. Didn't track, didn't get to the fitness center. No excuses.

2020 - Week 5

It was an ok week. I was down two pounds, got three days of exercise, including one session of Turbo Jam. It was only the 20 Minute Workout and I had to modify the shit out of it, but I did it without too much agony.

I'm feeling pretty decent, physically. Mentally, I am still pissy that I can't do as much as I used to. I'm still struggling with the low sodium diet, and I don't really stick to it. I know I need to get better with that.

Ugh.

2020 - Week 4

Busy week at work, no time for me. I made it to the fitness center thrice. I need new walking shoes. Food was ok. I'm still alive.

2020 - Week 3

Sunday I went to the fitness center and did my usual 1.5 miles on the treadmill. So far, there isn't any improvement to the pain. I power through it but it's excruciating. I hate having to do this.

I suspected I was getting sick and by Monday I was sure. I worried it was strep or the flu. I even went home from work early, which I never do. I canceled my guitar lesson and just vegged out on the couch. I spent the rest of the week coughing and not able to breathe half the time, but I managed to get a short walk in Wednesday and my regular treadmill workout on Friday. I was going to hit the fitness center again Saturday but I was just so drained. Food was decent all week though.

I went for my three month follow up with my PA on Wednesday. She ended up doubling my antidepressant and blood pressure dosages. I went for follow up blood work on Friday - I'm still waiting on those results.

Overall, I feel okay, even for being sick. My blood pressure is all over the map though. I've started the new dosage so hopefully that will start to help soon.

2020 - Week 2

Sunday I finally managed to get to the fitness center. It was too windy outside to walk. I did 1.5 miles on the treadmill. My pace is slow as fuck. I need to walk 3 mph to hit my target distance in half hour but my legs can't handle it. So I go back and forth a bit on the pace but I can't sustain 3 mph very long. I ate well and logged all my food. I hit my steps goal but not my fluid intake.

Monday and Tuesday were kind of a shit show. I hit my hourly steps goals but not my fluid intake. I didn't track my food but I ate healthy crap.

Wednesday was just okay. I took my lunch to work but I was still so hungry so I went to the cafe and got a sandwich and soup. I'm sure the sodium was super high but they weren't awful choices. I went to the fitness center after work. I hit my steps goal for the day but fluid was under the target. I did get the bright idea while on the treadmill that I should do Couch to 5k, so I tried running. I lasted 30 seconds before I couldn't do it any more. The pain in my legs was excruciating and I almost couldn't finish my walk. I'm glad I waited until the last 5 minutes to try running. It's so hard. When I have my headphones on, my body wants to dance and move. My legs aren't there yet and I worry that they will never be healthy enough to do the things I want to do with them.

I don't even remember the rest of the week. I know I went to the fitness center Friday. I tried the elliptical and didn't even make it five minutes before my legs told me to fuck off. Food has been okay but I'm not measuring and logging. It's just too much work.

2020 - Week 1

Yeah it was a short week.

Wednesday I walked 1.5 miles on the treadmill, met my steps and water goal. I was hungry as fuck and wasn't really prepared for healthy eating but I managed. I logged all my food for the day.

Thursday I returned to work, took my lunch and ate it all pretty early in the day. Thankfully, I had some yogurt and clementines in the refrigerator. I got home, walked 1.5 miles around my parking lot, and hit my steps goal. I fell short on the fluid intake.

Friday was a bit of a shit show. I started off okay, but then I ate a few cookies I didn't have nutritional information for and then we had chili dogs for dinner. I didn't gorge by any means but I didn't log the cookies or dinner. I also didn't kit my steps goal. I wanted to take my walk but I had zero energy.

Saturday was better. I didn't exercise and I missed my hourly steps and water goal. But I ate well and logged all of my food.

Week 2 will be better.

January 2020 Goals

December sucked. I was slack in everything and gained back a few pounds. I didn't track my food or really pay attention to sodium. I took a total of one walk. Meh, it's behind me now. 33.5 pounds to lose.

My goals for January are to make it to the fitness center three times a week to walk on the treadmill and exercise at home twice a week. I'm going to put together a full body resistance training workout. This month will surely be bodyweight only.

I have my Fitbit set up for 8,000 daily steps, and 250 steps every hour for 12 hours. I would like to hit both of those at least 5 days a week for now.

As far as food goes, I don't know. I would like to avoid processed shit as much as possible. I don't know how well I will do with the meal prep so I see a lot of chicken, eggs, and raw vegetables in my near future.

I need to drink more water. I'm aiming for 64 ounces a day, plus my tea.

This sucks.