94 days to a new me

Decent food. I'm so tired. One more week of hell, then I can hopefully get back into the swing of things. I will actually have an hour and a half in the morning before work to get my workout done!

95 days to a new me

I had the best macaroni & cheese today. It wasn't healthy and I overate, but damn, it was good.

This is my last week of crazy. I can't wait to have time to cook and work out again.

96 days to a new me

Food was just okay today. I did get some exercise - I played kickball with my third graders!

97 days to a new me

I was really good with food today. I even jumped a little bit at work. I was thinking about how much fun I had with Zumba yesterday, and it made me really miss Turbo Jam. I hate being so exhausted and working all the damn time. One more week!

98 days to a new me

I am really proud of myself. Work bought lunch, and I only ate half of it. I am saving the other half for tomorrow. Then at work, I did Zumba with the kids. It was so much fun, even though I was not properly dressed for exercise. It was a blast!!!

99 days to a new me

Food was good. I don't remember what I ate though.

100 days to a new me

I was planning on working out when I got home but I underestimated how tired I would be after such a long day. I'm going to get up early tomorrow and do it before I start my long day!

Food:
coffee w/ milk
Carolina barbecue pork w/ baked beans
plum
roast w/ mixed vegetables

101 days to a new me

I am really proud of myself. I forgot my lunch and my water bottle this morning when I left for work. I did not buy junk food or pop!

102 days to a new me

Today was a pretty good food day. I did have a 20 ounce bottle of diet Dr. Pepper and it was kind of nasty. Not how I remember it :( I went to my mother's birthday dinner and ate very reasonably and had a small piece of cake. I'm really proud of myself.

103 days to a new me

I ate too much junk today :( Idiot!

104 days to a new me

Another good day of food. I ate protein, fruit, and a small piece of cake. Oh, and vegetables.

105 days to a new me

Another decent day. The final 100 days of the year are approaching. I have to get my ass in gear.

My last day of crazy is October 7. My second job will be ending, and my fundraiser will be over. I should be able to hit the gym hard and finish off this horrible year on a high note.

106 days to a new me

The stress is starting to let up a little bit. I have not been as vigilant with clean eating as I should be, but I am miles away from the glutton I was. I'm really proud of myself. And of course, still drinking the water.

107 days to a new me

More of the same, you know? I did eat cake today though. I'm not doing so well with my no sweetener challenge. I'm not really eating junk (other than the cake) and still all I drink is water and milk and coffee. I'm so stressed. I miss working out. I literally cannot make the time right now. Between my jobs and the fundraiser coming up, I am a zombie.

108 days to a new me

Food is still good. I'm still not drinking diet soda - just my coffee and water. I am still completely exhausted. I need to start finding time to sleep and exercise, instead of working 70 hours a week and doing my PTO stuff. But until after our October fundraiser, I'm stuck in this hellacious grind.

109 days to a new me

I am sad to say that my goal of one race event per month for an entire year was stopped two events short. I was scheduled to run a 5K today, but exhaustion and personal issues came into play and I decided I desperately needed to be home and trying to sleep a little.

Unfortunately, I am also going to miss next month's zombie run :(

110 days to a new me

Decent food. Lots of stress. Ugh.

110 days to a new me

Food was good. I'm exhausted.

111 days to a new me

I did not eat any junk food today or even anything processed, that I can recall, but I definitely ate too many potatoes. It's all good though! I'm looking forward to my run on Saturday, I'm craving healthy foods, and I'm drinking my water.

112 days to a new me

Food wasn't that great today. The school has these new bagel sticks with cream cheese & cinnamon sugar in them. I violated my no sweetener rule and ate 4 of them. But other than that, I'm not doing horribly. Still tired and sick. I have a 5K to run Saturday. I hate being sick for runs.

113 days to a new me

I am really sick. Head cold, sinus infection, exhausted sick. I worked all three jobs today and the mental beating I'm taking has me worn out. I won't be working out for the rest of the week. I was good with food today, though.

114 days to a new me

Food:
coffee w/ milk
apple & cottage cheese
carrot sticks & chicken breast
chicken nuggets, fries & ice cream - This was way too much and too salty and too sweet. But I had a really bad night I did not care.

115 days to a new me

I am down 4 pounds this week, to 159.5. I'll take it. There are 115 days left in the year. I'd like to reach my goal weight of 130 by then. I'll have to lose about 2 pounds a week. Gah! We'll see. Workouts start tomorrow. I'm going to lift three times a week, do cardio twice or thrice a week. Haha, I know nobody says "thrice" anymore but it's a joke among my friends because I do say thrice. Not in every day conversation, but when I'm being funny.

Food:
coffee w/ milk
almonds & cereal w/ milk
eggs & toast w/ butter
chicken salad w/ salsa

I can't do Tapout XT

I just don't enjoy it. I don't look forward to it at all. I can't do something I don't look forward to. So it's back to lifting and cardio. I'm currently working on my plan. I'll post it this weekend.

Food has been good but I didn't write anything down or track at all today.

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D6

Today's Tapout XT workout was Yoga. I'm not taking any activity points for yoga.

Food [WW P+ values]:
coffee w/ milk [3]
egg w/ cheese [5]
Philly cheese steak w/ potatoes [10]
grapes & string cheese [4]

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D5

I did yesterday's Plyo XT, taking 3 Activity Points for it, because I really wasn't feeling it and putting much effort in. I was tired, I didn't like the workout and my carpet really sucks for cardio.

Food [WW P+ values]:
banana, coffee w/ milk [3]
apple & cottage cheese [4]
sausage & eggs [12]
grapes, cantaloupe [0]
beef & potatoes [12]

I need to work on getting more vegetables.

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D4

Today's workout was supposed to be Plyo XT but I was so exhausted from lack of sleep and so stressed over dealing with some stuff with my son that I'm postponing it until tomorrow and just going to bed early.

Food [WW P+ values]:
coffee w/ milk [3]
apple & cottage cheese [4]
half a banana [0]
quinoa [5]
chicken salad w/ cheese, avocado & salsa [13]

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D3

Today's workout was Strength & Force Upper. I was supposed to also do the ab workout, but I'm only going to do the ab workout once a week, on my "off" days. So Saturdays. I probably should have done it the other day but didn't think about it. Anyway, this was strength training, with a band and body weight. I took 4 Activity Points for it. I wasn't crazy about it, but I was very distracted by other stuff going on today.

Food [WW P+ values]:
coffee w/ milk [3]
apple & cottage cheese [4]
quinoa [5]
cantaloupe & string cheese [4]

Yeah, I know I'm low on points again. It will get better in a few days. The very thought of food right now makes me ill. I did eat quite a bit of cantaloupe though. I have some chicken cooked up so tomorrow should be chock full of protein!

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D2

Looking back at yesterday's blog, I realize I didn't actually eat the cauliflower with olive oil & cheese because I was sleeping! I fell asleep after my quinoa (around 5:30, while watching Friends), and got up several hours later to post my blog and shut down my laptop. I really dropped the ball on yesterday. I'm still really tired. I wanted to bring an apple to work today and I forgot. Grr.

And I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. I don't know why. I feel like I have no time for anything. I will be home by 6 tonight, work out, shower & bed by 8. That's plenty of time for what I need to do today. It might not just be today that freaks me out. I've mentioned that I'm separated from my husband. He has been taking our son to school on the days I work, but now he is also moving far enough away that it won't be a possibility anymore. I am trying to get my job back at the school so my son can still go there (we actually live on the other side of the district line) and I can just take him. For now though, I have to get us both up at 5:30 AM, go to my job at the hotel for about 45 minutes, then take 30 minutes to take him to school. I have to start work early so I don't lose any hours during the week. And of course, I have my big PTO fundraiser to stress about. I will be very happy on October 7.

Today's workout was Tapout XT Cross Core Combat. It was exhausting and fun. I couldn't complete the Grinder at the end and I had to modify a lot of the push up and plank stuff. But it was a good workout. I enjoyed it. I didn't wear my heart rate monitor but I took 4 Activity Points for it.

Food [WW P+  values]:
coffee w/ milk [3] - I use whole milk, and I used my sweetener...8 drops. It's neotame, which is similar to aspartame...nasty stuff. So starting next week, I'll hopefully be down to 6 drops.
apple & string cheese [4]
quinoa [5] - Last night's left overs. I have enough for lunch tomorrow and Tuesday, as well.
grapes [0]
scrambled eggs w/ onions & cheese [10]

I know I'm psyching myself out but I'm not really all that hungry (yet). I'm not eating enough. I should be aiming for 26-29 points per day. I have the Ultimate WW Diary app on my phone (Android or iPhone), and it gives you a "boost" option, which cuts 3 points off your daily target. So I should be eating at least 23 points a day. I know, within a week, I'll be ravenous and I'll be eating my 26-29 plus my activity points and some weekly points. So I am not going to worry about my under eating right now.

MMA Challenge - Tapout XT - W1D1

That fucking scale did not give me good news today. 163.5. It's not as bad as I feared but what the motherfucking fuck?

So, I'm back on Weight Watchers, trying to eat as cleanly as possible. I just finished a 31-day no diet soda challenge, and it was hard. Really hard. I've been informed that I have to do another challenge, and I think I'm going to go with SkinnyMs again and do the No Added Sugar Challenge. I am going to make some minor exceptions though. First, I need my gum. Sorry, but I do. Second, I still want my coffee and tea, and I might allow myself to drink that as usual, except I would cut back each week on the amount of sweetener I use.

And as a little motivation for me, I realized that my 20th high school reunion is less than a year away. So that gives me...10ish months to get in shape. Do I have a goal weight? Ugh, I don't know. The lowest I've ever been is 127.5 but if I can get to 130, I'll be happy. But then again, it's not about the number on the scale. It's about how I look and feel. I felt great at 130 before, and I looked pretty good but I still could have stood to lose some body fat. So, we will see what the mirror tells me when I hit 130.

Today's workout was Turbo Jam Fat Blaster. I am keeping Saturdays open because I have two 5Ks planned in the next two months. I couldn't kick this shit off with a rest day. I'm having difficulty adjusting to working out on carpet again. The old house had laminate flooring. The apartment is carpeted. I can't do videos in the garage because I don't have a television out there. I don't know if it's because the sneakers were brand new and had no wear on the bottoms or what but moving my feet was difficult. Jumping was great. I ended up taking me sneakers off and just doing it in socks. It was almost two slick that way. Anyway, I used my heart rate monitor (which I don't entirely trust anymore, even though the settings are correct and blah, blah, blah) and burned about 240 calories, good for 4 Activity Points.

Food [WW P+  values]:
apple [0]
eggs & potato w/ cheese [9]
carrots & cantaloupe [0]
quinoa [5]
cauliflower w/ olive oil & cheese [5]